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Good morning big guy! It is a beautiful clear blue sky, I feel good. This morning I weighed in at 222.0 pounds, which has been mostly stable for several days. I am increasing my muscle group exercises with the intent of continuing to lower my body lipid percentage, with emphasis on my abdomen.
Psychologically, I have been feeling more self empowered, recognizing the issues and personality deficiencies of my partner. I've worked hard on my own personality issues (admittedly, for her &your relationship, initially at least) for about two years, coming to understand my part in relationship issues, And in my own life issues, behaviors results, etc.
So, this recent recognition has me here: blaming my partner for not working hard at her psychological self. First, to be fair, I am aware that she has been engaged in personal counseling, group counseling, which she started after my suggestions. I applaud her for such, but my observations suggest that she has not "jumped in with both feet", or, is withholding engagement and introspection. She has acknowledged a fear of "opening Pandora's box, and becoming a blubbering blob of gel, laying in bed all day and not working". Wow, That's a hell of a fear.
George Orwell said, "A man may take to drink because he feels himself a failure, but then fail all the more completely because he drinks."
My dad used to tell me "Ya ain't gonna catch fish if your hook ain't in the water" and "you either fish or cut bait".
I've reached the point where I can demand of her to start doing, to really, really work on her internal issues that ultimately have profound effects on her son and her husband. Only she has the power to choose and act. For my part, I have demonstrated through sustained action, my commitment to improvement.
In a way, I wash my hands of her and continue on my way, the future is uncertain, but I will make the best of what I encounter and create.
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220.0 lb
Lost so far: 7.0 lb.
Still to go: 17.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 10 February 2017:
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1426 kcal
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Fat: 112.17g | Prot: 90.69g | Carb: 32.70g.
Breakfast: CVS Fiber Gummies, Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil, Coffee. Dinner: Minced Garlic, San Marcos Chipotle Peppers in Adobo Sauce, Swiss Chalet Quarter Chicken Leg (with Skin). Snacks/Other: Cabot Pepper Jack Cheese, Whole Foods Market Flax Seed Oil Softgels (1000 mg), Bubbies Sauerkraut, Feta Cheese. more...
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losing 1.4 lb a week
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