WendyMaq's Journal, 12 February 2023

I am a QUITTER!
I recognize that statement may be triggering for some of you, but hear me out. I have been in recovery for an eating disorder for a little over two years. I was a chronic dieter/restrictor after being an undiagnosed anorexic as a teen. I began gaining weight for no discernable reason and it triggered me anxiety/depression in a really big way. I kept telling my doctor I wasn't eating in a way to support the gain, but he wasn't hearing me. So I was eating less than a 1000 calories a day, still gaining, and spiraling... His resident actually noticed I had a poor relationship with food and I was lucky enough to find a group in my area who specializes in eating disorders. I was provided with a psychotherapist and a nutritional therapist who were both able to meet with me virtually, which made a huge difference. I have learned more about myself in the past 2 years than all my years in and out of therapy. I have learned how to nourish my body and why it is important to eat regularly balanced meals. I learned to stop demonizing certain foods because it's more important to eat what is available than to not eat at all. I've also learned nutrition should be 20% JOY. SO I QUIT. No more dieting. No more weighing. No more restricting. No more putting myself down. ...and no more fatsecret. I met some wonderful people here. You know where to find me. <3

200.0 lb Lost so far: 27.2 lb.    Still to go: 35.0 lb.    Diet followed N/A.