Never ever talk to yourself that way! You have to do the contrary. Talk yourself up and not down. You don't suck, you might not have the right tools, information, emotional state of mind. They're are all kinds of reasons you may not be succeeding right now. Take a step back and look at what's going on, and then work on it. Do make it personal. Talking to yourself like that will never help you. In fact, it'll keep you down. post your weight issues and obstacles, and I'm sure they'll be a bunch of well meaning members wanting to help you. But please, be kind to yourself. If you're not kind to yourself, who will be. It's your job to be your own best friend and not your enemy. You can do this. And you will with the right frame of mind, tools and support. :)