jass1202's Journal, 29 January 2008

That's what we're here for. I went through that for about 3 months straight through the holidays. All I did was drink alcohol and binge. It felt so good. And I had the hardest time breaking it until I found this site. I've been here a full week and going stronger than ever. I've gotten all my motivation back. I love it. At least you are exercising. I have't been good with that lately. Just take it one day at a time. I know, the winter time sucks, which makes it harder, at least for me. Just hang in there and try to stay focused. You can do it!! And I know exactly how you feel with the binge eating. It's a voice in my head that tells me to do it. I just have to learn to turn the voice off. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Good luck 

We all have good days and bad days. Having a weight problem is a constant battle, and even when we get down to our goal weights, it will still be a battle. But you have to be strong and not give up. If doing it for yourself doesn't seem like it's enough anymore, do it for your 2 little girls, so that they have a strong and healthy mom to look up at as a role model when they get older. When I'm craving really bad foods, I tell myself that nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. Also, set smaller goals for yourself like 10 lbs. They will seem easier to achieve and keep you motivated. And reward yourself when you achieve your small goals. When you reach 10lbs, go out an buy yourself a new shirt, and when you reach another 10lbs, buy a new pair of pants or a pretty skirt. That way, you'll always have something to look forward to. Also, I must give you major "kudos" on keeping up with the gym. Even though you may only be going because of your friend, you're still making the effort and that still counts!! I'm also following the Weight Watchers plan and whenever I'm feeling down and feel like I can't do it anymore, I will go on their website and read different success stories from people who have reached their goals. It really helps me and motivates me b/c I tell myself that I want to be one of those people someday, sending my before and after pictures and acting as an inspiration to somebody else. Don't give up though, and make the people in your life proud or your dedication! 

i can totally relate to where you are coming from . I think every one can. Just remember when your depressed you can make the choice to sit and wallow or you can choose to get up and remember to tell your self just one thing at a time don't look at the whole big picture. Just one breath at a time, one step ect.. i think that its good you keep going with your friend to the gym even though you don't want do it anyways. You'll get back up there and feel better soon enough. Good luck and keep moving forward 

Thank you so much for all your support. It really means a lot to me. So far today I have not binged but it usally starts like about 6-7 pm but I am feeling stronger right now and do not feel as though I need to binge. I guess I feel a little more satisfied with my self at this moment. I havn't eaten all my points because I am affraid that will cause the binge to be led on by the food. I think that for a few days I am just going to eat a little so that I can keep the thoughts of food to a minimmum. Hopfully I will be able to keep this up untill tomorrow and then will deal with tomorrow seperatly. Ahhhhhhhh Deep breathing. Sigh...