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Good morning, Fatsecret!
So, today is the day. Today is the first day of the rest of my life, and with a little luck I have had the last calorie counting day forever.
At least, that's the plan. Let's see if I can do it.
Watching the videos from Paul McKenna has made me see the obvious – What to eat and how to do it. I think he is right in so many thing that he says.
As a matter of fact, I am attempting putting the tv-show on Youtube, so you guys can check it out. It's a brilliant show, and it's something to do for four weeks.
I do think that there is something to watching it in week intervals, so I have decided that I'm gonna see if Youtube will let the videos sit there for a little while, and I will ”show” one in my journal every Monday - today and the next three weeks.
It's a brilliant show, and it's oh so worth 45 minutes of your time once a week. I highly recommend that you take a look. Even if you aren't gonna follow his system – there's a lot of great information that we can learn from, and it's good entertainment, too.
So this is where my emphasis in this morning's journal will be.
The video is here:
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Now, let's hope that Youtube doesn't block it. If they do, I apologize, and I'll see what else I can do.
So how am I doing? Well, yesterday I had a bit too much of the munchies, but I think I overall did okay. I wasn't as low in my calorie intake as I wanted to be, but I don't think I ate more than I burned. Today will be different. I am back on normal daytime schedule, and it'll be much easier to do good than it has been the last four days out from work.
Today I'm writing the journal, I'm gonna get my old workout DVD going - doing something other than the bike - and I'm gonna listen to my motivational CD before going to work. This will keep me in check all day, and remind me of the things I need to do, and keep me away from the things I do NOT need to do.
It's a scary place to go to – not counting calories. It's been such a huge part of my life for almost two years, and simply letting go is a ”dangerous” feeling. I feel that I am completely re-learning to do this, and I'm afraid I'm gonna fail, but if I do I'll just get back on track ASAP.
This reminds me of a fun little quote from the tv-show. ”When a baby walks the first time, and he falls over, we don't just give up and say 'well, I guess this one just isn't a walker', do we?” :)
I think it's a fair point. There is a learning curve on things like these, and I am sure there is quite a long period of learning to let go. For me, it's often about extremes, so going cold turkey is most likely the right way for me to stop counting. For me, I simply need to change to something else. This time, it's changing to doing what thin people would/should be doing. I need to eat right.
You know, it's so weird to think of myself as a thin person.
I really have a hard time seeing myself as being thin. I still have some ”fat guy” mentalities sitting there. I still have complexes over being too fat, simply because I haven't realized how I look. I walk down the street and I see myself in the shop windows and I still can't believe that I look the way I look. I'm not just down to chubby, or normal. I look THIN. It's so surreal.
I like it, though.
People are coming after me, telling me not to lose more weight. They tell me that enough is enough. Finally, I am starting to agree with them. This morning, I was standing in the bathroom taking a look at my chest and stomach. I can actually suck in my gut severeal inches UNDER my ribcage. I can't believe that. I have never ever been able to do anything like that. Not even close.
I can now feel my ribs on my chest. I can reach around my collar bone. I think I have to say I am done, or it will start being way too much.
So there it is. I'm done. I'm stopping the counting, hoping that I can do without it – simply by being conscious about my eating habits. I won't go in too many details about it – I'm hoping that the tv-show will stick, and that it will explain what I'm doing. I encourage you to watch it.
Also, the weigh-ins will be less obsessive. They will be weekly, even though I feel that I shouldn't do them at all. I should feel my way to how am I doing, but I am not there just yet. I think it's safer for me to weigh in every Saturday morning, to get a feel of my progress (or, hopefully, lack of...). It will tell me if I need to tighten up a little bit, if I need to obsess less, or how things are in general.
This is such an interesting experiment, and such a test for me – and yet it's such a calming thing to do, in a way. On one hand, I'm terrified. On the other hand, I know it's not a free buffet and I know I can't do whatever I want, and then again – with these new tools I WANT TO DO RIGHT. I don't have that same urge for bad foods, and what I want is actually to eat right. If I can do this, then the free for all will essentially be me eating reasonably good food until I think I'm full – and that's it. No harm done, and nothing to worry about. That's why thin people can do free-for-alls and still be thin. They don't obsess over them, and they stop in time. Simply, right? Well, in theori, it's simple.
I hope I'm there.
Today, I'm thankful for:
Starting fresh. This truly is a new beginning.
A dear friend hopefully joining me on Fatsecret. Hey there!
Wife. Love you babe! I owe her so much in this journey I wouldn't know where to start...
It's gonna be an amazing day. I know it. Because Life IS good. Hell yeah. :)
PS. It's kinda nice to NOT know what I weight today. Who knew I'd feel like that? :)
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