redgirl1974's Journal, 11 July 2017

sooo been a long time off this site.. maybe a couple of months.. Ive popped in here and there but not steady every day like before..Lets catch up.. I haven't gained anything and even done some losing,hanging on at 185-187. Which Im ok with right now. I left the site for a while bc I wasn't sleeping and dr suggested too much electronic stimulation may be attributing to that.. so I laid off the inter-webs for a while and the issue has self corrected. NOW the juicy parts.. DH and I have separated.. not in the mean fighting kinda way, more like we never talk and fell out of love kinda way. It was a long time coming and I just didn't see it, however I am the one that left. Relationships are like milk in my book, it was time to get rid of the expired one. In the process re-connected with an old friend who is now more than just a friend and Im staying at his place. The kid is living at my place and I go back and forth every day.. stressful to say the least.. Kid has to stay bc he works across the street and college about to restart and our house is on bus line.. No drama, just kinda sad.. I lost my job, company got sold and I got laid off , after 5 years,new company took me on but I had to start at the bottom.. where I worked sooo hard to get out of over the last 5 yrs. then my old company served me with a cease and desist letter for alleged crap I never said. Then my dad has liver disease and trying to get a transplant and my car just broke down today... I know some of you wanna know wtf does this have to do with weight loss.. well as a lot of you who know me know.. I am a horrible emotional eater.. and even drinker.. I have a bad relationship with food.. So like any addict, Im here to get control of it before it controls me.. Ive had some rough days and really ate my way thru town.. but I know enough to know that i will straight up sabotage everything if Im not here.. and working on my lifestyle. SO IM gonna be here... not to whine.. just to work on me.. bc I know that is the key to my success right now... cant fall into my old ways..

GOALS
1. Get back to logging daily-- honestly the good the bad and the booze
2. get back up to my gallon of h20 a day
3. 4-5 works outs a week

Thats all.. one day at a time.. I worked to ef hard.. not gonna go back to the 200's ever! GO ME !!

185.0 lb Lost so far: 121.0 lb.    Still to go: 35.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1230 kcal

Fat: 69.49g | Prot: 67.45g | Carb: 95.32g.   Breakfast: Duke's Original "Shorty" Smoked Sausages, Atkins Milk Chocolate Delight Shake. Lunch: Pepsi Diet Pepsi, Plain or Buttermilk Biscuits, Green String Beans, Kirkland Signature Frozen Shrimp. Dinner: Ore-Ida Steak Fries, Sprite Sprite Zero, Wegmans Mushrooms, Butter, A.1. Steak Sauces And Marinades Thick and Hearty Steak Sauce, Cucumber (with Peel), Giant Eagle Cherry Tomatoes, Marie's Chunky Blue Cheese Dressing, Iceberg Lettuce (Includes Crisphead Types), Steak (Lean Only Eaten). Snacks/Other: low carb bar. more...

2881 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Washing Car - 30 minutes, High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT) - 30 minutes, Resting - 6 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours, Housework - 1 hour. more...