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I have to admit that recently I've only been putting forth a half-hearted effort towards my diet. I don't know what it might take for me to start taking things more seriously. I had a recent weight drop, but it's hard for me to feel good about that because my weight has been up and down for a while. Perhaps I should try to focus on how it's good that I am not just ballooning up, though it seems I am establishing a pattern of inconsistency, success and setbacks.
In not strictly diet related newish stuff, my transition period seems to be veering more towards getting a job and frankly that scares me. I am scared of actually getting a job because I haven't really had a job long term. The one job that I had the longest- it was a little less than two years- I was fired from for being late too often. Punctuality has always been a struggle of mine, and it is going to be a major obstacle for me with getting a new job.
I think I was more hoping to go back to school. I had dropped out when I had that longest held job because I couldn't manage both so I had to go with the route that paid the rent. The problem with that is school is really expensive. I don't think I qualify for financial aid. I don't want to take out student loans because I don't know that I could afford to pay them off if I did. And I don't know what I would do school for. I know I'd like to at least finish my associates so I have SOME degree, but after that, then what? I don't have any answers. I've already applied to two jobs and am waiting to find out if I will get an interview for either position. I am also afraid that getting a job may force me to give up my MOPS and CBS groups. I really enjoy them, but they don't bring in any income and that is something my family could really use rather than me just having my social time in the community.
Diet Calendar Entry for 05 October 2011:
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555 kcal
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Fat: 23.71g | Prot: 46.24g | Carb: 38.95g.
Breakfast: andouille sausage. Lunch: apple, tuna salad. more...
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Please don't despair. There are people out here that struggle with similar issues. Although we have never met, just please believe that I care. I was really scared to think of getting a job outside of the home too. That was 12 years ago! Now I take pride in contributing to my family and I get to get out of the house and get paid for it! Good luck on the job apps and be grateful for what you have. Smile, someone out here cares!
05 Oct 11 by member: edsontrace
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Being that you have a child, you may be able to get financial aid for school, but I'm not really sure how that works out with you being married. You could always talk to the financial department at a school and see what info they could provide you with. And I totally relate to not knowing what you wanna go to school for- I went through that for years! Finally I figured it out though LOL It all feels overwhelming just thinking about it, doesn't it? The only thing you can do is take it one step at a time. Hopefully you don't have to give up your groups if you start work, maybe just cut back a little bit instead of all together, if possible? Its hard balancing everything, but I'm sure you will figure it out!
05 Oct 11 by member: tntmom87
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:) Thank you for the support. It is a help and it is appreciated.
05 Oct 11 by member: MrsTofu
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