tempest_spirit's Journal, 19 February 2016

I did get my work out in last night. Yay! I'm finally starting to feel comfortable with the warm up sequence on the Yoga video I've been doing. I may try moving into the stuff after the warm up sequence this weekend. It's rather embarrassing for me to say that's all I can make it through right now. I feel like I should be able to do more.

I got up early with a plan to do some Yoga this morning, but ended up using the extra 15 minutes to style my hair for once. I have managed to encourage my husband to start working out though. He tried for the local Police Department a couple of months ago, and was not able to pass the PT test. Testing comes around again in April, and I happened to ask him if he was working on it. He of course said no. I told him if he can't pass the testing again, he'll only have himself to blame for it. That seemed to be motivation enough for him.

Here in a couple of weeks I should have a loan against my 401k processed, and will put him to work doing some maintenance on the house, and we'll get our memberships at the rec. I'm super duper excited about that. I hear a treadmill calling my name to supplement until the weather turns nice.

There is a local Reiki studio offering a trial of a new weight loss program. It's not diet or exercise centered, but more targeted at the psychological and spiritual aspects of issues surrounding diet and activity. It's free, and the person running the program is kind of using us as a control group before she starts offering the program to her client base. For me, I think it will be helpful. Not that I'm unique in anything about my situation, but I have impulsivity issues regarding food, and I love both nutritious foods and nutritionally bankrupt foods, but if you put both in front of me, and offer me a choice, most often I will want the high reward food. And then of course there's always that guilt and shame while I try to convince myself I just don't care. It's a terrible thing when one lies to themselves. So getting to the root of not feeling like I deserve to be taken care of, and punishing myself for not doing so sounds like a good thing in my book, and probably pretty key to making a long term lifestyle shift.

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1214 kcal

Fat: 67.24g | Prot: 51.41g | Carb: 111.13g.   Breakfast: Avocados, Blackberries, Nature Made Super B-Complex, Harris Teeter Blueberries, Equate Women's One Daily, Frigo Natural String Cheese Part Skim, Coffee with Cream and Sugar. Lunch: Tuna Salad Sandwich. Snacks/Other: Frigo Natural String Cheese Part Skim, Smoked Butterscotch Latte. more...

3296 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Zumba - 1 hour, Sexual Activity - 20 minutes, Shopping - 15 minutes, Standing - 30 minutes, Driving - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 3 hours and 25 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours. more...