angel_face0145's Journal, 03 March 2015

Put last night behind you...each day is another chance to start fresh or keep a good thing going. Losing weight is as much or more about the mental process as it is the physical. You are not worthless, please don't put yourself down. You can accomplish this, even the largest tasks have to be done one step at a time. So just worry about taking one step, one accomplishment for today whatever that is. Build on it tomorrow with another one. You can do it. :) 

OK I am not going to placate you.. yes you feel like shit. Yes you hate yourself because if you didn't you would not hurt yourself By over eating. One small chain reaction creates a crap more chain reactions. I know.. I know I have just recently don't that very same thing.. but really look at yourself. Inside and out. Maybe you need someone to talk to while you are in the beginning stages of losing weight ( professional). Wish you were closer in my area.. you could walk with me.. exercise gives you a lift that nothing can touch.. talk a walk everyday.. stress is a part of life. I sick at handling stress. It's my nemesis. I cry and then have learned to buy nuts over eat on nuts,meat and veggies with butter. If not veggies. Then get your self some heavy cream and your favorite frozen fruit and blend them with splendia.. over eat on that.. if your going to do it at least stick with lower carb foods. Lol I don't think like a lot of people on here I do it my way.. screw it.. I go up and down and when I go up its because I am influenced by stress.. I hate myself.. but I am learning to love me. You will too this takes time.. and time it what is the hardest for everyone.. we are a hurry up and get things over with society. When you get that stress STOP! GRAB NUTS grab the heavy cream and frozen fruit and blend.. see I know that I have a problem with it ( stress ) I also know that food makes me feel good so I am trying to change they way I see food but this shit does not change over night.. so I know I a work inprogress.. you have to find your way.. sorry don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.. and please don't judge we all have a path we walk and we usually have to walk it alone.  

The first thing you need to "get" is that you are not your weight....you are far more important than a number on a scale. No hating yourself allowed, seriously, you need to say good things to yourself...what is your best personality trait, focus on the positive within you. Being thin will not cure unhappiness, so you need to find your joy. Depression is a medical cause of weight gain, if you are suffering from depression, seek out medical help! This whole battle is more than what you put in your mouth, or a day of failed dieting, if you are still hating yourself today, please call for help, it is there. If it was a one day disappointment with yourself, shake it off and get going again, cut yourself some slack, it's a long road with bumps, stay with it and you will get over the bumps.....giant hugs my friend! 

jmb3450 and pattieh have excellent points. You are always going to stumble through this. Weight loss is one of the hardest things for a person to accomplish but it can always be one of the most rewarding. Every mealtime is a chance to turn it all around. So you fall of and then get back on the horse again. Let these negative thoughts go because they serve no purpose in this journey and provide only hurt. Take care of yourself. 

It's was just one night and today is a new day! Sometimes we let those negative thoughts take over, but now just start again and don't beat yourself up over it.