Hey Chakalina's Journal, 24 July 2014

Oh gosh, you guys! I can't stop the late night snacking. I know so many of you struggle with the same thing. It's so upsetting that I can't get control of my impulses. I think of a tasty snack and walk quickly to the kitchen and shove it in my mouth before I can convince myself to resist. It's not enjoyable. It doesn't even taste as good as I wished. I know the power comes from me. I know no one can help me with this. I have to be the one. The pressure can be so overwhelming. I try to think of the steady progress that the "diet" proves works. I think of my loose fitting clothes. I think of a flat belly and toned arms and legs. I remind myself how long it takes and how all these little snacks will keep me from my goal. Then I get more upset thinking about how all the hard work of the day is lost when I have another cracker with hummus, a handful of goldfish crackers, 3 slices of cheese, salami, and more beer. I'm so up and down. Where's my flow? Where's my stamina? Where did my motivation go? When is it coming back?

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3889 kcal

Fat: 116.48g | Prot: 157.00g | Carb: 566.20g.   Breakfast: Low Sodium Lowfat Cottage Cheese, Boar's Head Black Forest Deli Ham, Great Value Southwest Spicy Mustard, Arnold Multi-Grain Sandwich Thins, Sugar, Coffee, Coffee-Mate Original Fat Free Powder Coffee Creamer. Lunch: Salsa, Butterball Everyday Turkey Bacon, Cooked Egg White, Egg White. Dinner: Sabra Roasted Garlic Hummus, Wasa Light Rye Crispbread. Snacks/Other: Chinese Buffet, Michelob Ultra Light Beer. more...