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Rainy day, good for musing. Successful trip to farmers market and the home depot, have a number of new herbs to add to my collection.
Thinking over the past 7 years. My journey has been one of affirming who I am and finding ways to feel good about me. 7 years ago I was in the middle of my 2nd divorce and my mom, who I was living with, died, she was often a rock though had her own demons. I lost myself in dealing with all their demons; my 2 ex's went more than a bit crazy. Both were abusive in their own way.
I have needed to feel good about myself in many ways. I found a job that supports me, bought my own house, my life is economically tight but ok. I have 3 awesome daughter's and a slew of amazing grandchildren, except one step grandson has major problems. My life is generally good, except I could not physically do what I wanted to do. I was miserable.
Ortho doc said lose weight, strength training exercise and walk, or your going to have that knee replacement soon. If you do that you might never have to have it done. GP said lose weight, do cardio exercise, let's get your lungs in better shape, your asthma will be better. OK!! wake up!! do this!! I did. My GP is thrilled and uses me for an example.
So 2 years after these ultimatums I feel so much better. 50 plus pounds lighter and exercise in my routine. My asthma is mostly under control, I don't live on pain meds because my knees and my whole body doesn't hurt everyday. sure I have my asthma meds and a day here and there that aleve or other anti-inflammatory help. my daily migraines are gone.
I think getting me in a better physical state has changed my life. it lets me work on getting my home how I want it. it helps me do things I want to do. it's given me more confidence in myself after being beaten down by my controlling abusive ex.'s. I'm good.
I work on my house and yard because it makes me feel good. I want to love where I live. Maybe someday I can share with a new significant other, but I'm ok by myself.
My day was sabotaged by neighbors. Actually love that I am lucky enough to live in a nice neighborhood, sabotaged days are ok. Ended up sitting in the front yard chatting for several hours with various neighbors not getting anything else done. Started with my 87yo widow next door asking if I would go with her to the cemetery sometime this weekend. NP I've told her before, the cemetery has a homeless camp and it scares her and does not ant to go alone, makes sense. Came inside could not believe it's nearly 8 pm.
Diet not good. Good dinner nothing except beer before. Need to quit that
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 May 2014:
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928 kcal
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Fat: 13.44g | Prot: 37.02g | Carb: 52.99g.
Dinner: Spinach (Chopped or Leaf, Frozen), Sweet Potato, Chicken Breast, Butter. Snacks/Other: Light Beer. more...
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Thank you so much for sharing your story, sweet friend! I know how therapeutic journaling is for me & hope you feel that too, but sharing also is so inspirational & motivating for those of us lucky enough to call you a friend & be able to read about and share in your journey. You have come so far, tackled demons, found yourself & your passions, and are such a wonderful testament to eating healthfully. What a wonderful share to wake up to this morning! Thanks again! xoxox
25 May 14 by member: Ruhu
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Great sharing - thank you. Wonderful that you took an easier route to improving your health than just accept the surgery as so many others do. That's what I have to remind myself of daily - I'm making progress, good progress (or is there such a thing as bad progress) and I wasn't born to be perfect.. just a little better.
25 May 14 by member: FullaBella
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A knee replacement is something I do not want to do. Leg surgery is NOT fun. In 1986 I messed up my left leg working with my horses. Ended up in an 8 hour surgery to repair tendons and I have a pin through my knee. They gave me 5% chance of ever walking with both legs. Had months of physical therapy, was on crutches for over a year, non-weight bearing for nine months of that, in a leg brace for several years after that. Strict no high impact after that, my aerobics and running days were gone. Doc said probably a knee replacement in 10years. Docs now say keep up the strength training, walking, don't gain the weight back, and that knee replacement may never happen. No guarantees but..... Now my cane hangs on the shower rod in my main bathroom as a daily reminder, I haven't used it now in about 6 months. I am going to take it down and paint it pretty to match my bathroom when I decide what new colors I'm using in my bathroom. After that surgery was also when I gained weight and it's been an up and down ride since, till I was 190 when I was given the ultimatum by my doc.
25 May 14 by member: wholefoodnut
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