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So I have to admit that I am walking a very fine line between determination to get back on track and feeling totally hopeless. There are no excuses, the food is my choice and for the last couple of weeks I chose poorly - on one or two occasions absolutely deliberately so. It feels like any time I start to make some headway the first emotional trip-up and I deliberately set out to sabotage myself, destroying weeks of hard work and discipline in a matter of days.
The funny thing is that when I sit back and go over it, not one indulgence or otherwise crappy choice tastes worth it. It really doesn't, I've gone low to no sugar for so long that processed sweets are overwhelming and don't give me the same pleasure. Processed carbs wreck my stomach for hours. I know it and I still do it.
Our snow and ice is finally clearing out, but now my foot is having serious issues so even my activity is restricted.
I know what works for me, I just need to do it - and stick to it and realize that nothing from my past habits tastes as good as I feel when I'm doing it right.
Time to try again.
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281.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 81.0 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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gaining 2.4 lb a week
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That's what's so complex about weight loss. The emotional connection is HUGE and we have to deal with it for the rest of our lives. You are fortunate in that your body is telling you that processed carbs and sugar are BAD since they make you feel BAD. That's half the battle. As for the other part, I don't have much advice. Just keep reminding yourself how little pleasure you get from those binges and poor choices. We're here for you. Keep checking in :-)
09 Mar 14 by member: gilliansings
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I do the same crap sometimes and then afterward I kick myself hard, lol! On the other hand I feel great when I get into the sweets, so great that I have a hard time stopping. Sometimes, it doesn't have to even be anything sweet, if I like it, which I'm not very picky, If it tastes good to me I want more. Not quite sure how to control my hunger yet so I can't help you there. You can do some moving around doing some floor excersing though. You would be suprised how many moves you can do on the floor without bothering your foot and get your heart rate up as well. Just doing SOMETHING will make you feel better and keep you motivated to stick with your food plan!!! Hope that helps some!!! GOOD LUCK!!!
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I think anyone who truly has a weight issue, not just a couple pounds to lose goes through those same battles. I could put you struggle right in my journal that is how much it sounds like what I go through.
09 Mar 14 by member: KimHob
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Cinnabar, I almost forgot one more thing! The first mistake that I can see is that you have to want to do this for you and only YOU, not for ANYBODY else. Think of your health, being around longer, being able to get out and do more and feeling better about your apperance and that should do it!!!! :)
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the more you punish yourself the longer you'll continue to sabotage yourself. "Whether you fall, means nothing at all, it's whether you get up":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOiakZ1hrR4
09 Mar 14 by member: rebccajane
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My fatther was an alcoholic which is a craving for carbs. My sister and I craved carbs also except its food. My husband has lost 25 pounds smoking cigars and drinking coffee It sucks. Oddly I still see in my minds eye myself as 170 lb even though I haven't weighed that in 28 years. I teach water aerobics, ski , walk and swim which doesn't seem to help . I have called my self a physically fit fat person. I hate pictures and would never take a selfie, I hate how I look in a mirror. I just married on son and hated every picture of me. Now I have my other son's wedding next year and dread the thoughts of pictures again. My son's fiance wants pictures of my wedding for a family tree. I can't bear to show those pictures of me at 120. Everyone also says to my husband how he hasn't changed and say nothing about me. A rocky marriage, finances and handicapped sister doesn't make things easier.
09 Mar 14 by member: Paige Moccia
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I felt alone... reading this confirmed that I can't be the only one feeling this way. It's a daily struggle. I know I can, I have. Then, you see t.v. programs that show all these wonderful looking things and other situations where you eat because you're hurt or stressed. I know exactly what you mean though. Like today, I ate breakfast at McDonald's and had a brownie on top of that. I knew I shouldn't have, but ya know...
09 Mar 14 by member: mrstiffanykuhlmann
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Thank you everyone who took some time out of their day to be supportive. I think Tiffany hits it hard, even though you *know* you're not the only one out there fighting this, it sure feels that way most days. It does make a difference, and easier to make the choice to stay on track. Thank you.
11 Mar 14 by member: cinnabar
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Every day is a chance to improve, stay the same or fallback. The key is to have more good days then bad. It has taken me 2 years to lose 50 lbs and there have been ups and downs along the way. I totally understand the sabotage aspect. You are not alone. You are human. You are worth every good thing that happens to you.
11 Mar 14 by member: ebrowner88
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