I'm so sorry. You have to take care of yourself. You cannot help your husband or numb your pain by overeating and hurting yourselth. You need to stay healthy and full of energy to go through difficult time. What you eat is one of the few things you can still controll at times like that. Cook or buy healthy precooked meals, portion them and keep in the fridge or in the freezer. Then if you need to eat you will know that you will only eat one premeasured portion. Try to eat slowly and paying attention to what you are doing, and try to enjoy every bite. Then you will not need second helping. Hang on, dear. We cannot really help you in your real life, but we can still support you here on FS.