Deegees mom's Journal, 06 October 2013

Oh I'm so sorry! I'll keep you in my prayers during this difficult time. ~~ Wayne 

How awful for you...try to rest so you do not get yourself sick. When parents need us after a health crisis it is hard for all. My father also has a DNR order...and has had multiple heart attacks, stroke and dimentia. Doesn't mean that I don't want him here...but we also don't want him to suffer either. Put your trust in the Lord and what is meant to happen will happen. Your father will go to a better place if he were to leave this earth if he is a believer. We want to keep them here with us as long as possible...but for my Dad...he would be happiest being with my Mom again. They have been separate for over twenty five years now. Let me know if you need someone. 

Thanks. Dad would have been 83 years old this month. I do not know how long he will be with me. His left side is paralyzed, same with his neck, and his breathing has been effected. I was hoping to have him around for five or six more years. I guess God had different ideas. I do not like the month of October, my brother died in my arms last year on the 21st and now my dad......nope I do not like the month of October.i am going to try and get a few hours sleep and then head for hospice. My nephew will be there with me as both of my nephews were there today at the hospital. Dad is at peace as they are keeping him medicated, no pain and calm. That helps me stay calm, the priest saw dad at about 7 this evening and that also helped to calm me. Dad was a good Catholic, he said the rosary every day and watched mass each morning, he even got me saying the rosary with him. Prayer brings me peace of mind. Many thanks to you for listening. Take care of you and yours, hug them and tell them you love them today and every day you do not know what is going happen tomorrow. 

Just keep in mind the wonderful place that he is going to. If he believes in God and accepts him as the Savior he will go on to the place of no pain...only joy. He has lived a long life and will be thrilled to see his Heavenly Father. Sorry that you have to say goodbye...but we don't get to decide how long we get to keep people with us. Otherwise my Mom would never have left.