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Good morning!
It's yet another morning in oblivion.
I don't know how much I weight. I don't know how many calories I consumed yesterday. It's all good.
I can tell that I am lighter. The excess weight from the weekend is definitely coming off. My general feel of things tells me so, as does my belt. I know I am heading in the right direction, and I feel great!
Yesterday was a LONG day.
I skipped my morning walk yesterday, as I felt that I needed to go to work instead, saving up some comp time. I was worried about reaching my 10,000 step goal.
Well, the goal was reached around 2 PM, absolutely no problem. At the end of the day I had reached 18,715 steps. Not bad.
Of course, I worked at the gym, it was busy and I was literally on my feet the entire time. I even had dinner standing up inbetween sessions with clients there. Phew.
Fitbit suggests that I burned 3374 calories yesterday. I'm inclined to agree.
The day was extremely busy and sort of stressful. Something happening at all times.
There was a very uncomfortable twist at the end of the day.
As I was shutting down shop at the gym and heading home, I head a crash out side. An older man had hit the curbe on his bicycle, and had hit the ground (hard tiles) head first. He was bleeding from his head, had broken his glasses, was disoriented and hand trouble answering just simple questions like his name and age.
Obviously I called for an ambulance, and stayed with him until they took off with him. Phew.
As much as I don't mind helping in a situation like that (duh), it took away another hour of my sleep last night, from waiting, and probably another hour coping with it before being able to fall asleep.
What an uncomfortable thing. And poor guy. I hope he's okay.
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All the walking yesterday, and the days before, has really taken its toll on my legs. They are tired. Very tired.
For that reason, I have decided to NOT go for my usual walk, and NOT go work out this morning. My legs need a little rest.
I will still be standing up all day at work, and I have errainds to do, so I will most likely reach 10,000 steps at the end of the day regardless, but I won't be doing any conscious things working my way towards the steps. I will just go with the flow.
Knowing the menu for the day, I am very comfortable with NOT getting the extra calorie burns from those activities. I think I can reach my 2,800 calorie burn goal for the day. That usually happens when I reach my 10,000 steps.
I hope that I can give my legs enough rest that I can go work out tomorrow morning instead. Then I can rest a few days again, and be back full force Monday. That'll have to do.
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Wife and I are trying out a new little lunch restaurant today. Supposedly, they have a tomato soup to die for. I will be looking forward to trying it, and to seeing how they make it. Tomato soup can be many different things. Does it have meat? Does it have noodles or rice? Is there bread on the side (if so, I will toss it out)? I can't know what to expect from the calories until I see these things.
It won't really make much difference regardless of what they put in there, though. I know that I will be in the right place on my calories, even if I don't count them. I know I will be doing good.
I feel that I have great focus this week. So far, I'm doing great. My "crisis" day have been Tuesday lately, and Tuesday's gone. I made it though with no candies no stupid foods. The worst I did was a small protein bar, worth 180 calories. It was within my feeding window, and did no damage. It was part of dinner, that had to be fast as I was busy at the gym.
Today's dinner is Danish meatballs, called "frikadeller". They're one of my favorite dishes. It's simple and tasty, good meat. A little high on calories, but not worse than so many other things.
I'll make boiled potatoes and steamed veggies on the side.
I am guessing that if I stick to plan 100%, then I will reach at most 1500 calories of my 2500 allowance from tomato soup lunch, protein shake afternoon treat and dinner, plus an evening apple. It's easy to do this. All meals are covered, and there is room for fruit. I think I will manage. :)
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In a way it's stressful for me to not know my "numbers". I am a control freak, and I really miss knowing all the details on weight, muscle and all. I still weigh-in, but I don't look. I do this for statistics later on. It's hard for me to resist peeking, but I stick to it. If I peek, then the idea of doing things this way is gone for right now. I won't check my weight until Saturday morning.
The same goes with calorie intake. I think I know enough that I can "wing it". I know that I just need to do right to do right. It really isn't that hard, but boy do I miss seeing the hard facts. I miss knowing EXACTLY what I have left.
I do see that I feel less inclined to go for the stupid choices of food when I don't know what I can allow myself to do. It seems like I am a little more cautious about my choices. Not really from needing to, but it seems to be a little more natural. This is obviously a good thing.
If I can keep this up, then it might be the way to go in the future.
This is kinda like reaching Weight Loss Nirvana, isn't it?
Being able to simply put away calculators and scales, and just do right. This is what we should ultimately end up doing.
The trouble is of course, that in the back of my head will always be a little voice that reminds me that not using calculators and scales was the reason that I ended up weighing 360lbs.
And then again, is that really true? I'm not so sure any longer.
I don't think that the reason was that I didn't calculate or weight.
I think the reason was much more that I was oblivious to the consequences of my food choices, and that I frankly didn't care. I was lazy, I was comfortable (or so I thought), and just did what I felt like at the moment.
Obviously, if "what we feel like" is mindless eating 24/7, then our bodies will have to react, as mine did.
Today, I think it's a lot easier for me to NOT eat 5,000-6,000 calories daily. If I did, I'd kill myself. LOL.
Today, I have I seen the consequences of my actions back then, but even more important - I have seen the POSITIVE consequences of my actions over the last three years. The new me is obviously handling things a lot better than the old me.
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Wow. I can't believe it's been almost three years. My anniversary is actually coming up.
Now, how does one celebrate that? Any suggestions? Most options are open, I think, as my anniversary falls on a Friday. I don't have to get up early on Saturday.
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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Rest.
- Sleep.
- No plans tonight.
- Wife.
- Morning coffee.
- Easy day at work.
Happy Wednesday, folks! Life is good!
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