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It's Monday and I'm still tired or already tired... too tired to decide which one.
My SD did the tradeshow with me this weekend because she 'needed to get away'. I have no idea why people considering MY working a VACATION venue.
I could so journal a long rant about her right now but miles of it in the past hasn't changed her so I'll not waste my fingers or your reading patience. All I can do is change my reaction about it so plan B: it is what it is, was what it was, and I'll just consider it done til the next time if there ever is one.
Weird eating this weekend. Twice it was a struggle to stay on the track and finally last night I had an out of body experience as I scarfed down an entire old really crappy chocolate eclair that had been sitting on the counter since Tuesday. I could hear my core 'EWYL' coach hopping up and down screaming at me from the sidelines.
"Are you really hungry? If so.. is that really the best you can find to eat because it really tastes kind of crappy to us... the chocolate has all melted off.. it's stale.. gummy..... oh why are you still chewing???..." until it was gone. Emotions, exhaustion, lack of sleep and total lack of self control had a mindless grip on me as I shoved bite after bite into my mouth until it was finally all gone.
So far so good today.
Shoot, I typed that too soon. The window washer just asked me 'how long have y'all been married... about 50 years..?'
I answered, 'Seriously, I look old enough to have been MARRIED 50 years?' Good grief.. this is the south and we do marry young around here but that would put me in my mid to late 60's... cripes? He's still blabbing on about stuff despite his size 11 foot in his mouth.
With that, I think I'll end today's journal before I start typing profanity for FS to edit.
Hope you all had a good weekend and are having an ever better Monday.
Bella
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16 Sep 13 by member: Mary in LA
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Ignore the cretins. Not worth your worry time.
16 Sep 13 by member: sw21204
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Wondering if, rather than "total lack of self control" not venting about SD caused the eating of the stale eclair.... Just a thought. As I've heard you mention, there's only so much self denial one can manage....
Lots of love - Ce
16 Sep 13 by member: Sweet Ce
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I hate those days...Love and Hugs...Hang in there sweetie...:O)
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Fire the damn window washer! Did you not have your sexy wig on? Perhaps he saw DH and perhaps because he is sick he looks older? Whatever, fire the damn man. Sorry you got stuck with evil SD this week-end, no wonder you scarfed down the eclair aka scarfing down your emotions. You know I can relate, don't you, that's what I did this past week. And did it help, hell no, just made me more miserable and guilty! Sigh. But today is another day my beautiful friend and it was only one eclair (I hope you managed to stop there :) So doubt much damage was done physically; you probably flagellated yourself to no end for the slip. So hugs and thanks for all your support. Hope you get into your church and that you find some solace and peace. How is the placement of the lap top going, solving any issues for you?
17 Sep 13 by member: sarahsmum
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People don't realize the how their offhand comments can affect someone. I'm sure the window washer thought he was just making polite small talk. Family drama can really throw our sanity for a loop. So I blame SD for the éclair incident. I guess we will always have these challenges. We just have to learn new ways to deal with them. Easy to say, hard to do! But we learn so much from our buddies here. There's hope for us all. I refuse to believe otherwise!!!
17 Sep 13 by member: evelyn64
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