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Well, last night I couldn't sleep...so I got up around 3:30 this morning...
I'm in a great mood...just waiting for some work to come through...the economy is really kicking my A** right now...and I'm sure it's affecting many of you as well...so I won't keep complaining... lol
I had to drink more coffee than usual today just to be able to sit up straight...and I hope that doesn't affect my weight loss...although I don't think it will simply because I now have the energy to get more done.
Since those comments nearly shattered my self esteem, or what's left of it, I've taken joy in decorating my little apartment.
I find so much peace in making this space mine! I have a refuge here now...I've filled the house with things that I love...a place where I can come to get my head straight, a place where I'm surrounded by people who love me no matter how fat I get, or what I look like...a place where I am at total and complete peace with myself...it's my harbor from the crazy world around me...
I really enjoy decorating (even though I've probably spent WAY too much money)...it keeps me active and occupies my mind completely...cleaning is definitely an outlet for me...my house is one thing I have control over and I love the fact that it's MINE because I put in so much work...I have something that I'm proud of...that makes me feel good...
Since I'm surrounded by so much negativity "out there" I decided while I'm at home, I'm going to surround myself with people who love me...even people who are far away...so I went to Kmart and bought like 5 huge collage type picture frames that you hang on the wall...I hung them right by the front door, and all the way up the stairs to my room...that way, after a long day, I see my loved ones' and I trapped in a wonderful moment, right there on my wall...
It has done a real positive thing to my mindstate...thank all of you for your concern...it means the world to me. I vent on here because I'm so embarrassed to tell even my family that the tough lil' Kiki is hurt by a comment...it's not like me at all...but I am very sensitive inside...thank you guys so much
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Great idea!! Words can hurt sometimes but just remember that you have to love yourself first and make sure YOU are happy! No one can care about you as much as you care about yourself... or least that's the way it should be!! Have a great day girl!
01 Oct 08 by member: lorik
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Glad you're making your home a safe, happy haven. Keep hanging in there and BE HAPPY! :)
01 Oct 08 by member: mbhpro
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I can't imagine having to take the kind of criticisms that you have through work. It's got to be very difficult. I'm sure that creating a comfortable solace of a home as you have, helps immensely! Great job for doing that and remembering what is important to you! Chin up babes... you know your heart, Rock it UP!
01 Oct 08 by member: bullytrouble
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You are doing great things for yourself and I hope that great things follow for you! Good luck with the rotten economy - it is really difficult to make ends meet for just the basics. Enjoy your home and hang in there!!
01 Oct 08 by member: nikeit
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It sounds like you really know how to take care of yourself, Kiki. That's a great gift - and never stop doing those things for yourself. In my last apartment, I had this long, narrow staircase that I didn't know what to do with. So, on one side, I strung two pieces of twine along the wall and used clothespins to hang pictures of the ones that I loved on it. As the years went by, I began clipping inspirational messages, pretty cards that were sent to me or meant a lot to me, and, of course, adding more pictures. When I was really sad, I'd take my time going upstairs to my bedroom and I'd go through all of this stuff on the way. By the time I reached the top step, I would ALWAYS have a smile on my face. Surrounding ourselves with people and things that make us happy and that loves us is good for our spirit.
01 Oct 08 by member: Paige E
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That is a great thing to do. I try to make my home a "safe" and warm place too. :) Home should be our happy place anyway.
01 Oct 08 by member: sararay
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