Lizzie983's Journal, 20 December 2012

Journaling from sunny Italy! I can see the neighbors Xmas tree from the window, so shiny in the morning sun. It's warmer than in Germany, but still very humid, so there's not much difference in the end.
I feel super tired today,since yesterday I have been doing a lot of things for the photo exhibition. We'll have the opening next Saturday. Pics have been printed, flyers as well; still need to work on writing captions for them, and this afternoon we'll go and hang the frames on the walls.

Yesterday night I went to sleep far too late. Talking to a friend through skype, then was laying on the sofa to start sleeping. On tv there was "Meet Joe Black", I got to watch only the last hour. It made me think about my mum. There are so many things here that remind me of her. She has chosen most of the furniture in this house, there are her pictures around, her books, the curtains she has been knitting.
I have been crying a bit, had a bunch of memories coming back; it has been nice though, I was not sad. So, I went on watching the movie till the end, just because I was looking at all the objects around me and "tasting" the nice memories bound to them. I am glad to be able to be in a good mood when I am here, since for the past two years I was very sad only at the idea of being here and seeing her stuff.

So, no scale here. I have been eating things that are not included in my diet, but tried not to overeat. I am having way more chocolate then I should, though. So, no way to check about the damage of the past few days and the incoming Xmas disaster. Today we are going for lunch to a relative, he'll be cooking traditional polenta. I get to eat it only once every few years and it's really yummy. I'll try to eat more meat and less sweet stuff.
Since I feel very tired, I feel like eating more. It's not easy at all to resist. I am also getting antibiotics, and they hurt badly my stomach. Other 5 days to go :-/
Nevertheless, I feel happy, glad to be here and happy about my life in general.

Have a good time, fatsecreters! :)
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Have fun on holiday, and dont worry about the diet too much. Cant let that ruin our good times! We also cant give up! hehe.  
20 Dec 12 by member: posterchild66
I get so hungry when i am tired too. Since i have five kids i don't always go to bed when i want. But I also try to go to bed on an empty stomach. When i wake up in the morning it is always growling at me. :) and since breakfast is my favorite meal..... who am i kidding, i like all meals. Man i need to go cook breakfast. I am just making myself hungrier. Anyhow enjoy the food and your family and friends. You might set yourself back a little but you won't forget the memories you make! 
20 Dec 12 by member: iamachristianjesusfreak
Hey Lizzie when I am tired I eat more...I think I eat to keep pumping myself with a burst of energy. I am glad that you are finding happy memories in looking at the things around you and thinking of your mom. I hope you have a wonderful day. 
20 Dec 12 by member: jaime30024
Its very nice that you are able to "taste" the good memories around you there, that the sadness attached is lessening its grip. Sunshine sounds wonderful; we've been having a lot of rain. I've been baking cookies and today I was so tired I stopped resisting temptation and ate several, instead of tasting one now and then. I've given most of them away, but will make more for Christmas Eve Dinner. Take care of yourself, enjoy your time there; taste life! If your pants get too tight, stop tasting chocolate for awhile :o) 
20 Dec 12 by member: crabby Kat
Thanks a lot for your support!!! :) It's right, better enjoying time with friends and don't worry too much for now. It's very nice to finally have good memories and less sadness. 
21 Dec 12 by member: Lizzie983


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