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One day soon I will have my life back. One door will finally close and many more will open. The journey will be long, tough at times, frightning at others but most of all I hope I will start to have fun and start to live rather than just try to survive in fear.
Gaining my freedom has been costly. Financially hugely so, that is just money... Physically and mentally, emotionally the torture nearly broke me. However, I am still here and looking forward to the next stage.
As I can start to focus on ME I will get to where I want to be in my body, and mind. Constant stress has contributed I believe to stalled weight loss and persistent belly fat. That is the theory I often read anyway, and one thing I have been is stressed.... So roll on relaxing and happiness. Roll away belly roll and I look to embrace the new life ahead.
Though I have not posted, logged or weighed in ages, I do keep in touch with my pals through reading journals and comments. There is so much support and positivity here within the community. I look forward to perhaps being able to give more in time, to be more encouraging and supportive directly or indirectly. I am soooooo looking forward to coming out of the past and welcoming the fun which the future holds.
All our futures can be bright. Every day is a new chance. Best start to the day is waking up, and then we get another chance. The choices we make each day whether good or poor should be embraced. Being able to make our own choices and forge our own life, path, and goals should never be underestimated. Freedom and choice are so much taken for granted. I am like a caged bird released, and I will not, I hope I will not, ever lose that appreciation and take my freedom and ability to make my own choices for granted.
I hope I stay positive and don't fall into the trap of woe is me, poor me, look how hard it is, look how I struggle, how is it ao unfair. Life is too short to be miserable!!
Let's have fun, and no, that doesn't mean self harm and eating wrong then beating ourselves up after. Enjoy life. Enjoy the rush of cool air in and warm air out as we breathe. Enjoy the rain, the changing days, the new slimmer, fitter body. We are long time dead, we only get one chance, this is not the dress rehearsal. Sure, the last few years have been lost, I intend my surplus weight to be the only thing I lose from now on.
Coo, that was alll a bit odd.(rofl) Good to have journal placeholders to look back on. And on the mobile app I can't read what I write other than a ouple of lines at a time. probably makes no sense and if full of typos. I would blame the gin but I haven't had any in weeks!!!
FS buddies, followers, friends and all... wake up, smile and embrace the day. Every day while we can.
Signing off from my wet Welsh hillside in the hope that tomorrow I get a chance to smile again. :) (and eat ;) )
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