POWENCH's Journal, 08 November 2008

Well I have not had a bad week..a few too many carbs on a couple of days, but did not break the calorie barrier.

Yesterday however I saw a photo of myself that someone else had taken. I just about fell over backwards. I looked huge, in an outfit that I thought was pretty sliming. I think a weight issue I have is that I don't see myself as big as I am and it does not help when I tell people what my goal is and they look at me like I am crazy.

I have to get to 180 pounds just to be out of the obese catagory for someone of my height. So I don't think 160 as a goal is that far off the mark...Yes the last time I weighed 160 I was a 6th grader, but I really want to go into my 50's without the threat of overweight health issues, and I was just as tall as a 6th grader as I am now.

Now that I have actually SEEN a photo of myself, I am so shocked. I know what I look like does not completely define me, but how could I have been so clueless.....And why the hell does this make me want to eat? You would think it would have the opposite affect.

I have now stuck with this weight loss plan longer than any other I have attempted in 20 years. Maybe all these things come out after 4 months...I hope I can work my way through this...

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1229 kcal

Fat: 21.11g | Prot: 77.13g | Carb: 183.60g.   Breakfast: Honey Nut Cheerios. Lunch: Tangerines (Mandarin Oranges, Drained, Juice Pack, Canned), Deli Select Honey Ham, cottage cheese. Dinner: Venison, brummel and brown, Baguette. Snacks/Other: Scone with Fruit. more...

4250 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Standing - 8 hours, Housework - 4 hours, Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 3 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...