Sandy701's Journal, 27 February 2013

Hoping to give you support and encouragement. We can never be 20 again but would we want to be? You are amazing, you are doing as good as you, right now. You know you are struggling and you are dealing with it. Its so hard to be patient because we want it 'now' but it will come, it will come. If you can get a few more 'good' days under your belt you will feel more in control. (I can talk the talk even though I'm not walking the walk these days :) Hang in there :) 

Sandy..you can not compare yourself to the 20 year old gal...Your a mature gal..that has come such a long way and you should be proud of your self....look at what you have accomplished in your own right..Its hard after you have worked to where you are now...Right now your just in a slump...but wait til its nicer out and you can do more of that walking while the flowers are out and the birds singing etc..Hope your Collie guy's foot is better soon...Hugs...:O) 

Sandy. Poke. LOL, you and Bren, my constant companions. Whatever will I do. I know the slump feeling. I've got to get it together too. Spring is coming an we'll feel better, your walks will be more fun, your Collie will feel better too. Lots of hope in my heart for March. Have a great day. 

Sandy so glad that you got out for your walk; I know it will help you start to get your head back into things. It is tough but we are all here for you when it gets tough too. The great thing is you are confronting things even when they are tough. Instead of running and hiding and continuing to spiral. You know what you need to do to get those few extra pounds off and I know you will kick them to the curb in no time. This is a life time change and one that many of us will have to confront many times in our lifetime. What I do know about you is that you are strong and you have made it so far and I know that you will be back on track. 

Geez, really, we MUST be related/kindrid (sp?) spirits, or something uncanny like that since to tell the truth, I could identify with Every Paragraph. I do so feel your pain & frustration with yourself. At this point I think we need to pull out the big guns & blast this overbearing "mood" to pieces. If music does for you what it does for me, bring it on...turn it up...splurge & pick up some new stuff & play it LOUD, copy it & take it with you for your walks. First comes the spirit, then comes the brain & then the body has to come along for the ride. Now, about those clothes, same problem here...I have some flannel lined jeans that just depress me to wear, since I don't FEEL like they fit as well as they did when I bought them. Truth is, I am not sure if that is really true, but that is how I feel. So, instead of hiding from them & being afraid of them, just this morning I decided to use them as inspiration instead. I know where I want to get to & I know you do too, I know how to get there & I know you do too...it is NOT that far away, not really. So, about the salad...good for you, you made a choice & a good one. The best part is you figured it out before hand. So proud of you for that!! About the young filly you work with...she has a 5 pound variance, I wonder how she feels about herself when she hits the high end...how does she compensate for that I wonder? I bet she makes changes...some concessions for the next few days/weeks, perhaps she isn't even totally aware she does, but I bet she does! I think we assume "everybody else" doesn't struggle, doesn't have the fluctuations in weight to deal with, I bet they do. Nobody can eat perfectly each & everyday. If it is true that to gain a pound you have to eat an extra 3500 calories, add to that a little extra water weight...how could anybody keep their weight totally consistant, each & everyday? Maybe if they ate Exactly the same thing each day, drank Exactly the same each day, & had Exactly the same excercise each day? Boy, I yak aLOT! Hope you are feeling better today! 

Issy, Bren, Heather, Jaime & Dar.....Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!! I needed that encouragement!!! Big time! Issy...just keep talking the talk and the body will soon follow! Bren...better weather always helps me, but eventually I've got to figure out a way to make all this work, no matter what's going on outside. Heather, looking ahead to March tomorrow just seems like a much brighter time, doesn't it? Hope we can all take advantage of the new month. Jaime, I DO need to do what I know I need to do and stop the spiral. Sometimes it feels like trying to turn around a huge steamship into rough seas, but I know if I can just persist, that darn ship WILL turn around and behave itself! LOL! Dar....I'm using some of those tighter pants as inspiration too. Music on my walks definitely helps and I took advantage of it again today. When the dogs are with me, I don't listen to any because I want to be able to hear everything going on around us. You and I DO know how to get on the track we want and we WILL get back there, come you-know-what. Better days are ahead for both of us....after all, you've got a cute, cuddly puppy coming your way!