One day closer to the weekend....*sigh*
Happy Tuesday everyone!!! I hope we are all having the best day we can!!
So when I was a teenager, I was youth leader in my church and part of the leadership role was to teach a Wednesday night service once a month. One of my weeks, I had prepared for this for like a month and I was ready!! Or so I thought...
I had prepped a whole visual and everything. When I got up there, I got two of my guy friend to move a pallet around, I would ask them to put it one place, get frustrated and ask them to move it, and this went on for a while and then I finally pretended to get mad, tell them to go sit down and I would move it myself! I then moved it myself to the place they had put it in the first place. It was a great visual and it worked out well, because my lesson was on sometimes we try to tell God how to do things, when His way is the best way from the start.
The problem came when I started the lesson, I thought I had it down, I had studied it and planned it, but I wasnt ready to speak it. I stumbled over it, I got nervous, I forgot important pieces. I had practiced, but when the time came to do it in front of a whole congregation, I wasnt ready. I didnt plan on the people there, watching me, judging me, thinking that what I was saying wasnt perfectly aligned with the word...I was not ready.
Losing weight is like that, when you are by yourself, eating right, working out, telling yourself you have this, you are going to get fit. Then the time comes to tell others, and you arent ready. The pressure of them all giving you "the best advice" or saying "one wont hurt" or "you look great just like you are" "you are losing too much"...we cave. We convince ourselves that they are right. One wont hurt...WRONG...one does hurt, because for a lot of us, one is just opening the door to two or three...or the whole bag. People do not realize how mental losing weight is.
Our mind is used to having things one way, used to eating a sleeve of Oreos and then dinner, or eating a pint of Ben and Jerry's. Our friends are used to us eating the other half of their pizza, our family is used to us eating two or three plates of dinner. When that changes, our minds, our friends, our families, do not understand that.
That brings me here....Perseverance....we have to fight all of that, we have to stand above it and say "No, I am taking back my life" and really fight for it. We have to persevere. We have to face the stumbling blocks in our path and move them. Avoiding it will only bring it back around, you have to move it.
I have a friend whose mom I absolutely love, she is so good to me. Recently my friend told me that her mom had come to her and said I was losing too much weight, I was "demaciado flaco" too skinny. At the time, I was 410lbs, nowhere near skinny, but she was concerned. I understand that, but that was an obstacle I had to face and move, I had to reassure her that I would be fine. I was getting healthy. She wasnt being unkind, she was worried. But only I know what is best for me.
If this is a jumbled mess, just take away from it this, dont let anyone tell you what is best for you. Stand in the face of the ones trying to sabotage you and persevere. Walk tall, knowing you are doing this for you, no one else.
Today I will pray for my perseverance, I will pray that I continue to be strong in the face of my adversaries. That the Lord holds my hand when I am weak and brings me strength to press on. That He touches each and every life here, showing His goodness and mercy. I pray for healing for all of us here, for our families and friends. I pray He reveals Himself in a real and tangible way, removing doubt and fear. I thank Him for His blessings and pray we are all blessed in abundance. In Jesus precious name, Amen.
I hope you all have a wonderful day!! Thank you for reading this, and I am sorry if it made no sense, I feel like I had a direction, and the path wasnt as clearly marked as I thought! haha I have to take my husband to the urologist today, so I am hoping that goes well. Keep pressing forward, never look back. Who you were yesterday, is only a shadow of who you are becoming!!
