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07 October 2011

Good Morning you beautiful spawn!

I love the feeling of my hands in the dirt, in the paint, in the arts. I love the feeling of sculpting my own world. I love the way you need to “learn” before you can “do”. I love the pride in a job well done...

With that said i often wonder why...i choose to be in a lifeless career...one that only pays the bill and doesnt pay off like the way a good hard workout does..why do i suffer, when my passion is with clothing, and SHOES, decorating and beauty. As a kid, i grew up wanting to be an interior or fashion designer but took the "safe" route of business..now in the industrial contruction field...mundane..dull...i am striving more then ever to turn something mundane into the magical. HOw i wish i woulda followed my gut..i wouldnt be in this rut.

I know its not too late EVER but A couple of road blocks include:

Where i live: Not really saaavy in the industries im interested in

Funds: Or lack there of. as a single house parent, coins are limited

Confidence: Also lack there of. Even things like waitressing... that i know i am cabable of but always wanted to do for fun, as a side job, i dont because im scared to screw up but thats part of it, the learning as you go that i love, that you grow as a person and find your inner awesome-er...a good diet and excercise will help with this!

Im also not scared of change...im scared of failure..and in a strange way success. Self sabotaging is the pitts, why do we do this? Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate...our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We often ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? US PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD

...i could go on for days, but these arent road blocks these are excuses. Im tired of saying "im not a quitter" in regard to a career change. I am DRIVEN I just need to be take the leap, cause man i sure have the faith. Has anyone been in this situation before??

Diet and Excercise are on que..i would tell you all about it but there is only so much to be said about tuna and celery...

Have a great day 280 of 365, All my best,

Jenn

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04 October 2011

BOOM! my hawtsauce is back under 130. Im looking forward to having my ass handed to me by my trainer..boxing day..get you some of dat!

Hope you all have a healthy day

M1: WW ENGLISH MUFFIN, TURKEY BACON, EGG WHITE
M2: PROTEIN SHAKE
M3: CHICKEN, SPINACH, ROTINI
M4: PROTEIN SHAKE
M5: CHICKEN, ROTINI, SPINACH

Party on,

J

Weigh-in: 129.0 lb

lost so far: 11.0 lb

still to go: 19.0 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

(1 comment) losing 7.0 lb a week

03 October 2011

Weigh-in: 130.0 lb

lost so far: 10.0 lb

still to go: 20.0 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment losing 0.4 lb a week

22 September 2011

Bonjourno,

I have been working my bag off and i feel super heavy but i know i always gain before i loose so just need to keep off the scale for some time...

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19 September 2011

Welp, i dropped 3 grand on a trainer and he is a smoke show, so combined with his supremely good looks and the amount of money i just spent..if that isnt motivation i am not sure what is. I had the most supremely great and active weekend...golfed 18 holes, yoga, spin class, run..and steered clear of the beer.

Hope everyone has a great monday, full of clean eats and some monday excercise in there. Do you think my coworkers will mind when i sub out working to run a couple marathons in my work boots followed by 5000 squats and 1000 sits up and fire up the blender during important telephone conference call?!? haha!

Get you some of dat.

J.

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