HerStrawberri's Journal, 04 June 2011

So it seems I'm out of the 340's. yay! Next small goal will be out of the 330's. Next week is going to be really hard for me as my partner is going away for work. She leaves Monday morning and isn't coming back till friday. I'm not used to being away from her. That prob sounds really silly, but as she is really the only one I have to talk to here....it's very sad. I HATE staying by myself. I always think someone is breaking in and I can't sleep at all. I have sleep issues anyway and her not being here is just going to make it worse. We are going to to the store today and getting me lots of food I can eat. I'm going to try so hard to NOT run to my 'feel better' food. I'm actually going to make sure none of it is in the house. the chocolate has GOT to go. In a small way i think maybe this will be good for me. i used to never be so dependant on someone and i need to start being Ok with being by myself. Sometimes I just get stuck in my head and my head is a scary place. =)

Anyway, I'm so happy I've lost more weight. My goal today is get an exercise dvd and some little arm weights. I think i will just work out all next week then i will be to tired to be upset that she is gone. =) I will prob have tons of journal posts as I will be up all night. Someone tell me to go to sleep! LOL
338.4 lb Lost so far: 36.6 lb.    Still to go: 153.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 04 June 2011:
1528 kcal Fat: 90.29g | Prot: 95.74g | Carb: 79.94g.   Breakfast: American Cheese, Scrambled Egg, Sausage Breakfast Patty. Dinner: french fries, Ground Beef (95% Lean / 5% Fat, Patty, Cooked, Broiled), hamburger bun. more...
4255 kcal Activities & Exercise: Driving - 1 hour, Shopping - 2 hours, Resting - 13 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet HerStrawberri's own diet   losing 10.7 lb a week

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Strawberri, you are doing awesome! Love your attitude and I like what I am hearing from you this week. It really helps out when just starting to see that scale move, great motivation to keep going! I agree, if chocolate is your kryptonite right now....remove it from the house, especially with your partner going away this week. Good for you on starting some exercise. If you can't get to the DVD and arm weights yet, just try marching in place and swinging your arms. I do 500 marching in place steps every morning and night, it helps rev up the metabolism, starts to wake up your muscles to the idea of exercise. Start with 100 and work your way up. Have a great weekend!  
04 Jun 11 by member: HealthyBabs
Thank you Babs! I really LOVE that marching thing. I'm totally going to start doing that. That's such a great idea. =)  
04 Jun 11 by member: HerStrawberri
Congrats on the loss. It's a wonderful feeling. Sounds like you have some great plans to face the week ahead. Best wishes! 
04 Jun 11 by member: vackerman
Congratulations you are doing a great job, I am just starting my exercise this week and HealthyBabs that is a great idea to march in place I know I can do that......anyhow, I don't sleep well either I don't know why I never used to have any problems, I think it is now a habit that is hard to break......LOL another one..... 
04 Jun 11 by member: Yvonne19
Yvonne, I have always had sleep trouble but since I started exercising I have never slept better. 
04 Jun 11 by member: danawiesner
danawiesner thanks I hope it works for me as well :) 
05 Jun 11 by member: Yvonne19
I used to be the same way. When I got scared I and had alone time, I made sure everything was locked, and that there was a phone nearby. That way I made sure that my mind knew that I have done everything possible to make myself safe. I then watched my favorite movies, read a few books, had some long hot relaxing baths, and pampered myself. Paint your toenails, Fat secret has great recipes, try to make a few of those. Go for some nice long walks during the day, take a book to the beach, pack yourself a nice healthy picnic to go along with it. I know it can be scarey sometimes, but try to take the time to do some personal growth. Reflect on how far you've come where you want to go, and maybe make a nice surprise that you have to work on during the week for when your partner gets home :) 
05 Jun 11 by member: Jennifer2010
Wow! You're doing amazing! I love my Leslie Sansone Walk at home DVDs - I started out with the 1 mile and have worked my way up to the 3 mile ones... I find them to be good exercise, especially at my size. They aren't too jarring on the joints because you're just walking in place, or doing other movements basically in place - and generally no jogging, which is great! Have a great week, I know you think it will be long, but it might be a good opportunity for some quiet thought... just make sure if the thoughts get scary, you come here to share... we're always here to help, and sometimes it takes someone else's perspective to make you realize that your thoughts aren't really right for you! 
05 Jun 11 by member: BrandyRelaxing
It's touching that you love someone so much and miss them when they are gone. This week is a great opportunity for you to work on inner balance by validating "you" by doing things you like to do and refusing to let negativity gain control. Sometimes, our imagined fears can be so overwhelming that we forget that a.) they are imagined, and b.) we would still most likely survive them afterwards. It's amazing how much of ourselves we compromise ourselves giving over to fear. Looking forward to you having little victories, one at a time! ;)  
06 Jun 11 by member: nolechick
Thank you so much! I'm totally NOT giving in to negitivity. I'm not as 'down' as i thought I would be today. I'm still sad, but I don't want to run to the chocolate stash or anything else bad like that. I'm even thinking of things I want to do around the house as a surprise for my partner. I have a migraine today, so I'm not going to get alot done. BUT I have the motivation to DO IT and that is such a huge difference then how I have been in the past. This site has made such a huge difference. It might sound so crazy to someone maybe just randomly reading this or whatever, but it's really true. I even told my mom my weight and that is something I have NEVER done before. My weight use to be the 'unspoken' in the past. now it's not. yeah, i may weight a hell of alot, BUT it's not as much as a month before.  
06 Jun 11 by member: HerStrawberri

     
 

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