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i WENT TO A Landmark forum and got waaaaaaayyyyyy more than I planned on. Went in wanting to work on one spot found a good 11 more and they are still popping up. So the emotional roller coaster I'm on is intense. What I learned at the forum I can apply here too... The thing i don't like is the high pressure sales to take the next course @ $940 .. $200 off if you sign up before the last day ( that was today and no i want to but my bank account says " Where you gonna get that?") Don't get it twisted the $625 was worth EVERY PENNY... It has been 4 days and there are HUGE changes already in my thinking and outlook. I've been doing therapy for years and this puts it all together. I have begun to repair relationships and am finding things I love bout me. So on to the work. My weight is a racket. I pretend it does not bother me to be big when in fact it does bother me very much. It makes me feel safe... I don't have to get involved with human connections.... So when I move It will not hurt to loose friends. I Don't have to move anymore. I get to stay in one place. I need to start making connections and learning to be in one place. The possibility I have created for myself is .... That I will stop hiding behind my weight and make lasting friendships. The rest of my life starts today... IF Y'ALL SEE ME FALL OFF THE WAGON.... PUSH ME BACK UP.
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204.0 lb
Lost so far: 20.0 lb.
Still to go: 26.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 2.0 lb a week
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