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Today is a new day and I am trying to give myself a fresh start. I "restarted" my diet- I don't know why exactly, but there's something simple and liberating about doing that, it feels like I am in a small way able to move on by doing that.
So far I am doing alright. I even did one of the p90x workouts. I have done each of the 8 or so ones at least once, but I haven't gotten to the point where I don't find them intimidating and stall a while before facing them. I know I have some fear involved, but what that is precisely about is unclear. In any case I faced my demons with that struggle and have prevailed for today.
It's entirely the wrong attitude, but I remember that while I was doing the workout I was thinking if I just make it through this I can have/ "reward myself with" lunch, but now that it's over I don't have an appetite. That feeling of not being hungry is surreal to me. I have to keep telling myself that if I don't feel hungry I shouldn't force myself to eat, and reminding myself that I'm already at half my RDI and am hardly going to go into starvation mode by waiting a while longer, but still there's part of me that feels like I NEED to eat now. I am choosing to ignore it right now because I think it's misguided and may be from some residual hard wiring I developed as a kid regarding food. Like many others I know a lot of my food issues are from how I grew up. Now I am trying to retrain myself so that I don't pass on the same maladaptive habits and attitudes I had to my daughter. So right now I know I am at day 1 of a long journey, I am glad at least that I don't have to trek it alone.
Diet Calendar Entries for 13 February 2012:
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1393 kcal
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Fat: 65.66g | Prot: 93.57g | Carb: 109.10g.
Breakfast: half and half, almonds, fried eggs, Sugarhouse Maple Breakfast Chicken Sausage, steel cut oats, skippy creamy natural. Dinner: cooked egg white, clementine, beef pot pie. Snacks/Other: skippy natural, apple. more...
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2025 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Fresh start is always a good idea. I am with you on that. I was often thinking of doing it myself. I also think that there is something about exercise that helps you feel less hungry. May be it allows you to dig into your fat reserves better. I don't really know, but I always feel less hungry after exercise. I even sometimes go for a brief walk when I feel hungry and it is still not time for a snack. I heard it is a very good workout. May be I should try it one day too, to break my familiar routine. I am not sure that it is not too much for me though. Great that you can do it, you should be very proud of yourself, it is a challenging work out.
13 Feb 12 by member: Ingria
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I try to do what I can. Sometimes I can tell that I don't give it my all because I am trying to pace myself through the video. I try to do as many of the exercises as I can, though some of them I just am not able to do because I don't have the coordination or strength, or I don't have the right tools- namely a pull up bar. It's worth a try if you can find the videos.
14 Feb 12 by member: MrsTofu
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