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This is going to be a long post. But since I was AWOL most of last week, maybe I am just making up for lost time…
Last week was tough on me and I am not even sure why. Well, the “why” is I was suffering from severe depression, but I am not sure why the depression was there. Last week had every reason to be an awesome week!
First off, it was my birthday week. My wife thinks that may have been part of my depression reason. Maybe she is right on a subconscious level, I was depressed about getting a year older. However, I have never experienced that before and, in all honesty, thanks to my efforts this year, I am in better health turning 46 that I was turning 36.
Secondly got nothing but great news from the doctors last week … well mostly. Ended up seeing 4 docs last week. Like I reported last week, my cardio doc gave me a good report, then I got my lab results back from my new PCP.
My blood glucose level dropped from 278 mg/Dl to 83 mg/Dl and my cholesterol dropped from 199 to 124 with my HDL (good cholesterol) raising from 33 to 40. My new PCP (who I still have not decided whether to keep or not) said if I keep up the good work, soon as I finish my current cholesterol and diabetes prescriptions there is no need to get them refilled. I am not longer considered to have T2 diabetes or a cholesterol problems. Lastly went to the dermatologist week to have a suspicious mole removed and the biopsy came back negative.
So, all those things were reasons to have a good week, yet Wednesday, I was so down, I couldn’t even get out of bed and called in sick. Thursday, my actual Birthday was a struggle. Spend half the day in doctor’s offices anyway and we didn’t even celebrate because things were so busy (we pushed it off until Saturday). Friday was also a struggle. I didn’t exercise for the 3rd day in a row, then gave up and left work an hour early.
I think last week probably boiled down to two things: First off, the Adderall issue. I am still unable to get that prescription refilled. I am trying to make an appointment with a psychiatrist, but I will run out of my current supply before she can see me. They have put me on the waiting list to see if I can get an earlier appointment.
Money the second problem. When you are already on a shoestring budget, unexpected financial problem hit hard.
I lost a bid on a website design. My price was good … and I mean REALLY good, but they still went with someone else. Probably got undercut with a “hobbyist” who will deliver a substandard product. They may be happy with what they end up getting, but I have been doing this for quite a while and guarantee my work. Amateur designers are killing this profession … but I digress.
Also, had to buy new tires last week. Was expecting that at all. I bought 90K tires back in 2014 and had less than 40K on them. Even with the “prorated” warranty NTB wanted close to $600 for a new set. Sam’s did have a good special on tires, however, on Saturday so I got them there. Still cost me $300, which happened to be all the birthday money I got from parents and in-laws.
Lastly my hot water heater had a small electrical fire on Wednesday. I am not a “handy man” and screwing with electricity scare the crap out of me, however I was able to avoid replacing the entire unit. Still had to drop $50 on copper wire and other supplies, however. Just not 100% sure what caused the fire to begin with, although the evidence looks like one of our “asshole” cats decided to pee on where the power connects to the tank.
Depression is a strange thing and will beat the crap out of you for real then slip away. The weekend was a bit better and by this morning I am back on track. Here is to hoping I can keep things positive!
Diet Calendar Entries for 15 May 2017:
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1483 kcal
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Fat: 66.15g | Prot: 89.45g | Carb: 147.77g.
Breakfast: Nature Valley Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut Butter Dark Chocolate. Lunch: Welch's Natural Strawberry Spread, Great Value Creamy Peanut Butter, Cobblestone Bread Co. Knead For Seed 12 Grain Bread. Dinner: Master Choice Canola Oil Cooking Spray, Corn, Bell Peppers, Alexia Sweet Potato Fries with Sea Salt, Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Chocolate Cake (with Chocolate Frosting), Publix Fat Free Unsalted Rice Cakes. more...
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4026 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 45 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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