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Good Tuesday Morning fellow travellers!!
Today, on the madaboutmoose front brings a wellness exam for me. Yesterday I accomplished my annual mammogram. A couple of weeks ago I had my eye exam. I should be good to go for a while, although I suspect my doc will recommend a colonoscopy since I am now in that 50+ age range. I'll put that off for a bit though, too much on my plate right at the moment.
Bob had a bad night last night. I think he is starting to get some side effects from the radiation that are impacting his bowels. He was up and down and up and down all night ... meaning of course ... so was I. He stayed home for work today which I think is good. I hope he can get some rest as he surely did not sleep much or sleep well last night. He's not quite to the half-way point yet in his treatment ... this is tough for him as he does not do well with not feeling well.
I continue to ponder this journey of mine. While I still would like to bring the range of my weight down a tad I am not all that focused on it which is actually a positive. I am riding the waves of fluctuation without feeling negative. I am enjoying my food and feeling confident about my choices. I do not feel as if I have "arrived" though ... and I think I don't ever want to fool myself into thinking I am "done." I am NOT on a diet ... at least from the perspective that I have always thought about "diets" as something you go "on" and "off" when you are "done." My diet is how I eat, the choices I make every day. There is nothing "forbidden" anymore. There are however foods that I choose to eat less frequently and/or not have easy access to ... simply because I know they can be trigger points for me.
That said I know I will have frustrating moments, moments when I wish I could "eat anything I wanted." In those moments I hope I remember that I CAN eat anything I want ... as long as I am okay with the after effects of that enjoyment. It is amazing to me that even with the stressors of life that I am dealing with that I can still be this positive about myself and make wise choices about what I eat. This is new for me. Never in my life have I felt or behaved this way before. I know it would be oh so easy to slip back into my old patterns still. Those are my "automatic pilot" and I have spent a life time honing those self-destructive choices ... and at times they served me well ... they helped me to "survive" many different challenges in my life. I no longer "need" those same survival skills now.
Okay, enough of that for today. I must get to the tasks of the day and say farewell for now!!
Five things I am grateful for today ...
1. being able to really think through and process this journey on many different levels
2. my husband choosing to stay home today and rest a bit
3. not dreading going to the doctor because I know they will weigh me
4. friends that care about me
5. and always, my family
Have a grateful day of being in each moment and making conscious choices!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 26 January 2010:
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1454 kcal
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Fat: 39.68g | Prot: 80.78g | Carb: 204.14g.
Breakfast: medifast cocoa, water, Fiber One. Lunch: apple, Blue Bunny Light Yogurt, Spaghetti Lover's Soup. Dinner: Perrier, Lean Cuisine Beef Broccoli. Snacks/Other: Eating Right Pita Chips, Tribe 40 Spice Hummus, Special K Protein Bar, Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch. more...
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3109 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Precor Elliptical - 50 minutes, Resting - 4 hours and 10 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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 Comments
Have you tried Queasy Pops for Bob to help w/ the nausea? I have friend in cancer treatment now and she said those help her. Also tea. Probably stuff you already know but wanted to pass along just in case. :) Have a nice day Moose!
26 Jan 10 by member: Chris1979
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I've never heard of Queasy Pops ... what are they? It isn't so much nausea for him as it is lower intestinal trots to the bathroom. Tea is a great idea though ... and I always welcome ideas ... Thanks Chris!!
26 Jan 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Great journal today and you are right and I have to keep reminding myself that this is a lifestyle change. That we are eating healthier. I am so sorry your husband isn't doing well today. Hope he gets some rest and you take care of yourself too.
26 Jan 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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So sorry Bob is going through that, but on the bright side, cancer treatments have come such a long way - they work better, and have less side effects. Hes half way through, and doing great. As far as you - you never cease to amaze me. Your going through so much, yet you can still focus on other things. Maybe everything thats going on with Bob is actually helping you. You have no control over it, so you have to take control over SOMETHING - yourself. Your doing great - we are all so proud of you!!!!
26 Jan 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
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Queasy pops are lollipops specifically made to help w/ nausea.. I'm not sure if they will help for his issue but it might be worth a try. I've seen them at Walgreens, if you have one near you. Or Amazon seems to have everything under the sun! :)
26 Jan 10 by member: Chris1979
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26 Jan 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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I'm sorry your husband isn't feeling well. But "not quite halfway" means almost halfway, right? I really appreciate your thoughts about needing those autopilot moments, and how they served you in the past. Good things to think about. And it is AMAZING that you are remaining positive with everything on your plate. The scale can't measure that kind of progress!
26 Jan 10 by member: beets_yum
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THank you for always reminding us to step back and look at this journey in the BIG PICTURE VIEW.
26 Jan 10 by member: beets_yum
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Good job. Yes, sometimes life throws us trials but you seem still focused on the task at hand, both your husband's and your own health. While your journey may have taken a detour that goes a different direction, you will still arrive at the final destination, maybe just taking a little longer. Enjoy the journey and the scenery along the new path. Everything happens for reason!
26 Jan 10 by member: jcbag97
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I think I've seen those pops in Babies R Us and Toys R Us. I don't know if they are something different, but they were for pregnant woman who are feeling sick from pregnancy.
26 Jan 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
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Great journal entry today. I hate that your husband is going through this. But, I'm so proud of you being so positive! Keep it up :)
26 Jan 10 by member: PurpleDeLane
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Hang in there - the secret to eating whatever you want is wanting to eat healthy low cal food! Hope Bob feels better soon.
26 Jan 10 by member: abbadabba
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I love your weight loss philosophy my Friend. It is indeed a lifetime journey! Hope Bob gets some relief. Wonderful top five! :)
26 Jan 10 by member: mbhpro
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