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I hardly ever put any personal information in my journal and try to keep it totally diet related. However, today I need to vent. I'm really having an emotionally hard time.
My son has been in the hospital for a week now due to attempted suicide. And to top it all off, my landlord who has been trying to get me to buy his condo told me that he needed to know today of all days whether I would buy the damn thing or not. Today is also my first day back to work. And now I'm a basket case. I've been crying all morning and I can't seem to stop. Of course this is the first time I've cried since all of this happened, so it was only a matter of time when this damn would finally break.
So, I told the landlord that if he needed an answer today, then it was No, I don't want the condo. Then I told him what happened with my son. He knew that he was in the hospital, he just didn't know what was going on. Well, my LL finally decided to be all nice and shit and then that was even worse. HE told me we'd revisit this whole thing in the new year and to not worry about it. I started crying even harder. Apparently, the last thing I need right now is someone to be nice to me.
I've got a meeting in 40 minutes and if I don't stop crying I will never be able to leave my office. Unfortunately the meeting is in my office and they poor guy is going to flip out when he sees my crying ass. Engineers don't handle girls or emotions very well. Put those two things together and you've got major cooties. I mean I'm an engineer and I don't deal with emotions or girls very well.
This sucks. Well, writing about this has made me feel so much better. But I think that if one more person comes and asks me how I'm doing, I'm going to flip out.
Diet Calendar Entry for 15 November 2011:
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613 kcal
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Fat: 18.00g | Prot: 18.46g | Carb: 96.86g.
Breakfast: apples, Wheat Free Gourmet Waffles, honey, Peanut Butter. Lunch: Brig's Turkey/Beef Pasta Sauce, quinoa pasta. more...
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