Johanne's Journal, 17 May 2016

I've been gone. I've been lost. I've been oblivious. I've been gaining weight. If I don't actively pay attention every single day, the habits I had five years ago just slide right back into place. What the heck is wrong with me?!!!

I have real food allergy testing scheduled for June 2nd. The blood test has shown a few more and I know there are more than that. After every meal, I suffer total lethargy. I just want to sleep.

I'm plowing on with the weaving. People are depending on me. After July, I should be able to relax a little and work on projects for the fiber show in November to make a little money to support supplies and tools for next year.

I'm going to start journaling my food again today. If I don't, I just eat anything and everything.

Diet Calendar Entries for 17 May 2016:
1798 kcal Fat: 14.85g | Prot: 80.67g | Carb: 354.46g.   Breakfast: Swanson Beef Broth 100% Fat Free Reduced Sodium, Bob's Red Mill Gluten Free Whole Grain Rolled Oats, Olive Oil, NOW Organic Acacia Fiber, Truvia Calorie Free Sweetener, Coffee. Lunch: KC Masterpiece Applewood Smoked Bacon Baked Beans. Dinner: Johanne's Two Bean Chili, Uncle Ben's Natural Whole Grain Brown Rice. Snacks/Other: Johanne's Two Bean Chili, Johanne's Two Bean Chili, Uncle Ben's Natural Whole Grain Brown Rice. more...
2619 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Many of us, including myself, have learned we can never let down our guard when it comes to eating! And it doesn't help that some food is just really addictive. If you are allergic to some of the foods you are eating this could set up an allergy-addiction eating pattern too. I hope you get definitive answers soon so you can feel better. 
17 May 16 by member: trackin64
Johanne... There is NOTHING wrong with you, except for the fact that you are human. :) Dang girl, we are just the same, which is why I'm so glad I'm back on FS. When I log my food every day, I see those numbers staring back at me and I make better choices. You can do this!! 
17 May 16 by member: ImLaura
so true Laura! I was just saying that this am. It helps alot 
17 May 16 by member: Rguarino
Agreed. Recording honestly, no matter what, is the key. Good luck Johanne. 
17 May 16 by member: FiveTwoCowboy
Nothing is wrong with you. You are human like the rest of us. Good to see you again. You may have been gone, but you always come back. Lots of folks give up completely. You are not a quitter my friend. God bless you ♡ 
17 May 16 by member: Gigi39
I agree! I just started again with tracking my food. I get frustrated and just quit trying. My Rheumatologist wants me to lose 15 pounds by July so I will do my very best to make that. 
17 May 16 by member: Hathor2004
It is so easy to fall out of it all. Just a few days and we can get off track. That's what happened to me. It is always good to come back to where we had support and get back into the swing of things. Nothing is wrong with you. It is a journey. 
17 May 16 by member: chattycathy1955
No big. You know exactly what to do... #flush-it #grindtime 
17 May 16 by member: jimmiepop
Thanks everyone. I feel like I'm starting all over again . . . the hunger, the cravings. I was doing so well but that was years ago now. I almost got to onederland and now I've gained back half of what I lost, or more. I weigh in on Thursdays so we'll see the actual damage then. It's so easy to gain and so hard to lose. 
17 May 16 by member: Johanne
I have done this so many times over the years, in my house we call it recovery because there is no cure x 
17 May 16 by member: tamzin79
You shall overcome. And you shall Succeed. 
17 May 16 by member: knuckles the mgtow monk
Starting over is a regular thing with me as well. Remember, we have a lifetime of habits to adjust and it cannot be done in a short period of time. You will do this. I have every confidence in you; we are in this together! 
18 May 16 by member: kclab
You are all so kind and so right. @kclab, that's the hard part. It's not a short period of time. I started this journey, for real, in 2010. The only blessing is this site and my friends here. I have only gained back half, not all of it, plus some, which is what would have happened in the past. @tamzin, you're right. It IS recovery. I was up late last night, weaving, and didn't slip until after midnight. One of the tricks is to go to bed on time. :-) 
18 May 16 by member: Johanne
Johanne, you've hit the nail on the head. Staying up late means that we get so hungry again because many hours have elapsed since our last meal. I know that all too well. Let's be better about going to bed before the munchies take over. ♡ 
19 May 16 by member: Gigi39


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