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I just spent a little time perusing old journal entries and my weight history. I had forgotten I actually saw 178 on the scale before. Not sure how I feel about discovering that. I'm almost 30 lbs up from that right now. No wonder my clothes don't fit.
The journey continues. One of my original goals was NOT to yo-yo anymore ... to stay in my range. 200 was supposed to be the OH SHIT number and I managed to keep myself in denial and move above it. Yes, I have had stress but I had stress when I lost it initially. But it can't be "failure" because I am still here ... and I am determined to find my way back to that range ... again.
30 lbs. Whoa.
That's the size of a hefty toddler!!
So I was 205 this morning.
Mini goals ...
1. 199 (back under 200)
2. 189
3. 185 (back at the top of my desired range)
4. 180 (Fatsecret goal weight)
5. 175 (my original ideal ... which I have not seen and may not even be realistic)
I'm tired. Going to go shut off the lights downstairs and crawl into bed next to my sleeping husband. I must remember kindness, I am responsible, I like myself!! I love my body!!! Shake off those temptations to beat myself up. I'm counting on you all to remind me ... I am not a failure and I'll find my way back to where I was before.
G'night all.
Diet Calendar Entry for 12 October 2011:
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2765 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 10 minutes, Pilates - 20 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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175 is realistic! And I was where you are 6 months ago- exactly where you are... Im at 171.2 as of this morning! You can do it too! FS is a huge help and keeps me on track... add me as a buddy if you like, we all need support! Good luck!
12 Oct 11 by member: NewSarah!
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Good morning and my fabulous friend. You - a failure - heavens help me. If I could, I would shake you. You come here, day in, day out (well we all miss a day or two here and there). You pick yourself up. You 'carry' your husband's shit a lot of the time. You carry the weight of the children you care for in your profession. You carry your own world on your shoulders. Of course you are fabulous. And you do all this with grace and humour! Sure some days are better than others. You are also human! 205 is good. Its a lot better than where you were and it will get better. And god forbid Carol you stayed at 200 ish for longer than you would like - you are healthy, you are loved, you love - you have furbabies who adore you, you have a fan club here, your husband adores you and you get to go to Mexico now and again. Just about perfect. Weight and body image is just a very small part of your life, really. I know you can get back down into the 170's, just not as fast as you would like. So, do you feel supported, damn it? LOL Much love my sweet, adorable Carol. Have a wonderful day when you wake up on Thursday. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
13 Oct 11 by member: sarahsmum
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You can do this as you have done it before...you inspire me to think
kindly of myself...and thats hard to do sometimes...Have a great day...
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Just read these comments on your journal and believe them girl. You keep telling me to be kind to myself. It's your turn to take your own good advice. We are not giving up. We will do this. We can do this. I saw you were back on FB last night. So sorry I missed you.
13 Oct 11 by member: chattycathy1955
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