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Maybe it's better to indulge in what you enjoy even if it leads to a premature death. A musician made that observation after his obese, chain-smoking father died in his 50s. I saw my own good friend refuse to give up cigarettes, and cancer killed her at 74. But she went out her way too. She loved smoking. What's so great about living so long that you wish you were dead? That's what I'm seeing with my mom at age 88. She lived a pretty health, active life and now arthritis and disabilities from accidents over the last year have made everything painful so she lives in a recliner with pillows all around her. She said she wishes she were dead, but her vital signs are better than people half her age. She will endure but she can't enjoy much of anything anymore. Sis and I had to get professional help to keep her at home full time, but we rearrange our lives to provide care half the time so mom won't run out of money. I'm filled with guilt because I miss my freedom and my old life and I do have some resentment. I know people who have said caring for their aged parents was a privilege and a joy. They are better people than I am.
All that to say I have been too tired/lazy to exercise and eat right since my last post May 2021. It would be nice to weigh about 20 pounds less but I don't need to live forever.
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217.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 67.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 29 October 2022:
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2508 kcal
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Fat: 110.10g | Prot: 69.02g | Carb: 305.62g.
Breakfast: Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Italian Sweet Creme Coffee Creamer, Butter, King's Hawaiian Hawaiian Sweet Rolls, Philadelphia Regular Cream Cheese Spread, Pepperidge Farm Swirl Raisin Cinnamon Bread. Lunch: Yellow Cake with Icing (Home Recipe or Purchased), Roast Beef Sandwich with Cheese. Dinner: Butter Sauce, Coca-Cola Coca-Cola Classic (12 oz), AMC Movie Theater Popcorn (Large). more...
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gaining 0.1 lb a week
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