cindylynnwho's Journal, 04 February 2022

It’s so amazing that someone (in my case my sister) can present as a best friend but turn out to be nasty and backstabbing. My sister used to act as the closest person to me. We would talk daily. I was the MOH in her wedding, she in my first wedding, and she could have been in my second wedding (coming in October 2022). Overnight in October 2020 she ghosted me. The last thing she said to me was that me and my chihuahua are both so adorable. She hasn’t spoken to me since and has refused to participate in family events in which I am present. Her behavior deeply broke my heart and is much of the reason why I still sometimes binge on food and beer. I am lucky because one day I can eat too much but I manage to diet well the next day and/or burn 500-600 calories running. I can go for a while not thinking about my sister these days but when the wound gets triggered ouch does it hurt. I have to figure out how not to let it bother me on my wedding day. There was never an explanation as to why she hates me. I think she is both jealous of my relationship and judgmental of it. I may never know.

Diet Calendar Entry for 04 February 2022:
1939 kcal Fat: 78.69g | Prot: 61.31g | Carb: 179.36g.   Breakfast: Vibrant Health Green Vibrance, Coconut Oil, Bananas, Tru-Nut Keto Collagen Protein Powder, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Original, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: 365 Bean & Cheese Burrito. Dinner: Unsalted Whipped Butter Stick, Great Value Corn on The Cob, Shrimp. Snacks/Other: Coors Light Beer (Bottle), FoodShouldTasteGood Sweet Potato Tortilla Chips, Guacamole. more...

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The app was malfunctioning leading to typos, sorry. Thanks for listening, friends.  
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
Aww Cindy I’m so sorry you are going through this❤️ I pray that God restore the relationship you had with her. She seems hurt by something and instead of communication it to you she’s isolated herself. 
04 Feb 22 by member: misskiki510
Thank you miss Kiki! I begged her to tell me what may have hurt her so that I could apologize, but she never responded. I have always loved her unconditionally and if there was anything I inadvertently did to slight her, I would be happy to apologize. However at this point there is nothing conceivable I could have done to warrant 1 1/2 years of no contact. All I can do is pray for the best for her and possible future reconciliation. Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. ❤️ 
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
Hi Cindy, I used to be like your sister. I would disconnect and never look back . As a matter of fact currentlyI am just like her with my own sister. It sucks on both ends. I didn’t communicate either, but she really broke my trust . We are supposed to be close, but she lies all the time. I was putting up with it for so long until I decided I no longer want a relationship that’s giving in one way . Self reflection is important on both parts . Think hard see what went wrong. My sister knows that’s why but she wants to pretend that she does nothing wrong. She lies her way through everything. How do you have a relationship with someone you can’t trust. I’ve tried for years. But she is who she is. I totally get the upset eating part , she hurt you, but why hurt yourself. Take care of you and time heals all wounds 💜💜💜💜 
04 Feb 22 by member: ocean_girl
same here I was raised with a half sister and a stepsister who I haven't spoken to since my dad passed 4 yrs ago over his Will and who he chose to marry after their mother 😔  
04 Feb 22 by member: tr3vi28
Sounds like me with my sister and my cousin 🤦🏼‍♀️ 
04 Feb 22 by member: Monica Frew
Or maybe shes just done with fakes in the family thats why i dont see most of my family they are all fake 
04 Feb 22 by member: Cluey22
Sorry to hear this.  
04 Feb 22 by member: Brigit123
Thanks so much to those of you who offered support. I have tremendous appreciation for all of you here who have made a positive effort to be a part of this community. At the same time, anyone who thought or thinks this was/is a good opportunity to insult me and project their own family’s issues on me because of their own situation without knowing my situation, know that I know better about my own life and won’t absorb your judgment just because you haven’t resolved your own issues.  
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
I had a Similar experience with my brother, only I didn't grow up with him and he is a textbook narcissist. He decided to take sides during my divorce from my ex when sides weren't necessary to take, (he chose my ex). Constantly tries to start fights with my husband whenever they cross eachother's paths in public yet treats me like I don't exist. Its been 6yrs since I last spoke to him and I can now say, he did me a favor. I choose to continue to love him from a distance and keep the toxicity out of my life. If your sister can just "ghost" you after all you've been through together, perhaps its a blessing in disguise. but I am a person that always tries to find the silver lining, so I'm probably not the best person to relate with. 
04 Feb 22 by member: Mimi Campbell
I am getting stronger against the unkindness of my sister and those who may possibly choose to support her without knowing an iota about the situation, so I can say that and stand in my ground as a loving and good person.  
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
Thank you Mimi I appreciate your thoughts. I am trying to realize like you that it was a favor. I always thought my sister was a good person even though she showed her judgmental and unkind side I always loved her so much and am working to learn to accept the fullness of who she is now that it has come out.  
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
I was the same way with my brother. Made excuses for his behavior toward me and even blamed myself thinking it was because I deserved to be treated that way for the longest time. Obviously I now know that no one deserves to be treated badly for attempting to care of themselves. I still battle with those thoughts every now and then but it does get easier over time. 
04 Feb 22 by member: Mimi Campbell
Thanks mimi  
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
We're always here to listen and to care💙🙏 
04 Feb 22 by member: CrystalJo74
Thank you Crystal 💜 
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
Don't really have any advice but hope and pray that you can reconnect at some point if that opportunity ever presents itself. 💜🙏💜🙏 
04 Feb 22 by member: Diana 1234
Thank you Diana 💜 I hope so too. I appreciate everyone’s support 
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho
Praying for you to find peace. You can't control others actions only your reactions to them. So sad that you have both lost the relationship you once had due to her choices. Know that you are loved here and by your husband to be. You deserve every happiness. 💕🙏🙏🙏 
04 Feb 22 by member: SLYONE 22
Thank you very much slyone! 💕 
04 Feb 22 by member: cindylynnwho

     
 

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