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Ugh... another time of feeling the shameful effects of binging on food I shouldnt even be eating in the first place.
I noticed that this whole binge eating was never a problem until around october. It slowly crept up on me.
At first it was once in awhile, maybe once a week I had a bad day.
Then in December I really started seeing a pattern. Once every week, especially on the weekends.
Then in January, they would last all weekend.
Late january, one lasted a whole week, i think.
And I gained at least 10-14 pounds. I was back up to 178.
Well, around october was when I started eating too little, obsessing over calories, and then in late January/early February I started using the FS food diary. And I nit-pick over every little calorie.
My fiance says I need to see a counselor. Maybe hes right.
The last two days have been disastrous. The last four days have just been terrible.
*insert long fart noise made with tongue here*
Oh well, I am starting again.
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