LadyBea40's Journal, 01 January 2014

Today I've decided to make a bigger effort to journal daily even though for the most part I think I live a boring life. My reasoning is I was looking online for self esteem building tools and found that this may help me get over some of the self beating I do and maybe learn to love myself better. I have notice in recent days that I actually do stop and look at myself in the mirror. For the most part I will say that I've never been a fan of the mirror. I think I look too much like my dear departed Aunt Sharon and although I loved her a lot...she was in her 70s. I am 54 and noticed a bit of a turkey neck thing happening. I don't like that and of coarse the same reason I don't like photos of myself I just plain try and stay out of my own view. Lately I think I am looking much smaller on top, my clothes which have never fit me right because I am pear shaped and always had to accommodate my butt are hanging including my pants. I am happy with the way this is going. I can look at myself without the usual disappointment. This is good. I know I can do this all the way to the end. I may not be the beauty I would like to be but I will be no longer a diabetic and I will be able to do things I haven't been able to do in years such as ride a bike. New Year...new life. Have a wonderful day buddies. I can't wait to see how it goes for all of us.

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1178 kcal

Fat: 38.06g | Prot: 77.86g | Carb: 133.95g.   Breakfast: Allmax Nutrition ISOFLEX Whey Protein Isolate Powder, 1% Fat Milk, Tap Water. Lunch: Whole Wheat Bread, Oscar Mayer Cotto Salami Cold Cuts. Dinner: Butter (Salted), Toasted Whole Wheat Bread (Commercial), Hunt's Chocolate Pudding Snack Pack, Beef Stew with Potatoes and Vegetables in Tomato-Based Sauce. Snacks/Other: Whole Wheat Bread, Bar-S Foods Classic Bologna. more...

4060 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Housework - 2 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 13 hours, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour. more...