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Well, it happened. I went to a very loud wedding. I was bored and not too comfortable in my new shoes and tight clothes, and I overate. I overate so much that when I started trying to add up all the points on my food journal, that I gave up.
The only thing I can do is start over and try to come up with some good tricks for next time. I think I'm going to try to avoid going to these kinds of events in the future. I know that sometimes it's necessary. Sometimes you have close friends or family occasions or even work-related events that are impossible to not attend. But I could have avoided going last night, and i should have. I'm like an alcoholic in a bar, and when I see all that food that I love, especially when I'm bored, I become self-destructive.
Also I came too hungry. I spent too much time that day with other things, and I actually ran out of time to eat enough. But I should have made it a priority because they only served horderves until 9:30, when they brought out the first dinner item, which was also uneatable on my diet. My plan of only protein and a little dessert would have worked if they served the meal earlier, but it didn't come until about 10:00. Anyway, I'm just going to learn from this bad experience, move on, and not let it affect me.
I feel like I'm complaining because I know that if I do truly move on, it really shouldn't affect my progress that much. That is a good feeling, after all. I think that writing on here daily is really going to improve my state of mind. I just have to do it, write out all my thoughts. It helps my clear my confused thinking from that bad experience. I feel that I'm rambling, but I'm typing as fast as I'm thinking, and it's almost stream of consciousness. I love this site. It's like therapy for me.
I just ate a rice pudding, but it was the last one I had in the house, and I'm not going to buy them anymore. Today I have one more hurdle, but I'll have my family there, my mom, dad and siblings. They all know how much I want to lose weight, and they're all very good at staying slim. They all have tremendous self-control, unlike me. But I'm developing it. At the birthday party today, I'll avoid the cake. I will also make sure to get in all my meals. I'll make sure that we stop at a fast food place after the party to get some healthy item. I'll make sure not to avoid my exercise either.
I think this will all turn out fine.
Diet Calendar Entry for 23 November 2008:
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814 kcal
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Fat: 42.01g | Prot: 42.43g | Carb: 76.87g.
Breakfast: EDAMAME, rice pudding jello sugar free. Lunch: guacamole, alternative bagel. more...
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