jaime30024's Journal, 18 March 2013

Okay so today I am doing a kind of cleansing and fast...at least that is my plan right now.

I have been miserable with my 'pipes' and did some magnesium citrate yesterday (gag) and that got things moving. I had some things that were off plan yesterday but I really wanted to try to toss my system for a loop.....maybe it will serve like a 'spike' day. I don't have those days typically but I do know that they can sometimes be just the thing to get the scale moving again. I am sure piping was one of my contributing problems...but not for two weeks. I have some miralax that I am using for the next several days (this is what the doctor gave me several years ago but now it is OTC). I know a big player is that TOM is starting to lurk and then I kind of got myself all stressed out about it....that was not good at all.

I will get my exercise in today (not sure what right now as I have errands to run after work).

Drinking all my water (and then some). Oh FINALLY found some macadamia nuts. I feel so much better and I imagine by about mid week I will feel even better. Also, got some probiotic vitamins to start taking....will see how those go too.

I am wondering if some of my stall has been stress related as well as some of my slow moving pipes. I know I am stressed...my baby is leaving and I am trying really hard to cope with it and not break down in front of anyone. I know that we raise our kids to be responsible adults and go out on their own. I want so many great things for her and have always seen her doing and being something great. I am excited for her and the possibilities that she may have. But there is nothing anywhere that tells us how to gracefully let them go when they are ready to spread their wings and fly. There is nothing that tells us how to combat the loneliness or emptiness that we will feel or even start to feel when they are nearing time to leave. Nothing to tell you how you will cope without talking to them for weeks at a time or seeing them for months at a time or longer. *sigh*

Diet Calendar Entry for 18 March 2013:
761 kcal Fat: 52.70g | Prot: 56.96g | Carb: 11.08g.   Breakfast: Macadamia nuts. Lunch: pampa asparagus, poached egg. Dinner: fresh express spinach, pampa asparagus, cubed steak, litehouse garlic blue. Snacks/Other: Sugar Free Mint Patties, Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup, miralax, Diet Rockstar Energy Drink (Large Can), French Vanilla Iced Coffee K-Cup. more...

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Oh girl, I do feel your pain..I always said that there was no manual on how it really feels when you get that empty nest. It's a raw feeling for sure and I just kept myself busy and out of the house on the weekends. By the 2nd week is when I started to accept it and by the 3rd week I was finally not crying. Now...it's still weird, but over it and very proud of my boys. Not that I wasn't before, don't get me wrong lol. It's learning to put yourself first again and not feeling guilty in doing it. Lots of hugs girl!! PS - it's ok to have moments too - it helps! 
18 Mar 13 by member: Mrs. H
When I was on strict Atkins I know I had to make sure I had enough fat and greens in my diet to keep things moving. Probiotics seem to help too. I don't like taking pills so I started adding greek yogurt in the morning for my breakfast and this helps keep things moving too. It adds some carbs but I don't consider these bad carbs. If all else fails take a fiber pill once a day like fibercon. As for the baby leaving. My babies are all still little. I think I will be a basketcase when 8 yr old is old enough to fly. But.. you can always turn to your friends here if you're feeling lonely! 
18 Mar 13 by member: Ms Elizabeth
Morning Jaime - I know it sounds crazy and probably late if you've already purchased probiotics but you may want to google 'sauerkraut' - I started that with my breakfast and it's made a difference. Also, Chia seeds... started that yesterday and wowza, in fact, I'm eventually going to journal about 'that' little amazing thing here soon. Feel better kiddo! 
18 Mar 13 by member: FullaBella
Mrs. H - There should be a manual!! I think by the 3rd week my tears will be gone and right now I am not crying around my daughter or my husband. Just when it hits me during the day as I am working. I think that will make it tougher...I work from home and she worked nights so we got to spend a significant amount of time together (either in the morning before she went to bed) or in the afternoon when she got up. I am grateful that I have had this time to spend with her now rather than if I did not work from home. Her room is empty now...she sold all of her furniture in the garage sale over the weekend and is sleeping on the sofa downstairs (even though she could have a bed upstairs...lol). I think it will be hard to learn to put myself first again without feeling guilty. DairyFarmersWife - I have gotten plenty of fat but not enough greens lately and I am sure that has not helped the situation..haha. Typically multi-vitamins make me sick (even when I take them with food) so I will see how this goes. If it doesn't work then I may be trying the greek yogurt for breakfast. I normally take stool softener daily (doctor's orders after my last incident years ago) but for some reason I just had a stall....hahaha...a stall with my weight loss stall too. Thank you for reminding me that I have wonderful friends here to turn to. Bella - I love cabbage but just cannot do sauerkraut. However the Chia seeds sounds very interesting and I cannot wait to read about your discovery!!! 
18 Mar 13 by member: jaime30024
Jamie - having just gone thru this during this past year...my heart immediately connected w/ yours as I was reading. And every Mom who's ever been thru this knows - we each deal in our own way - but eventually life forces us to keep moving! And that's a good thing. When I missed my son the most, I would say a little prayer for him. God, bring him a new friend today. Or Bless him with a new and fun experience. Maybe today, God, he could find $10 unexpectedly and get a pizza! Laugh if you will...but they worked. All of them. God took such good care of him - and he would call home and tell me about the answers to my prayers - without even realizing that's what they were! As for me - it took time. Time to settle into life w/ hubby and no kids around... and I was just starting to like it, and our middle son moved back in!!! So I barely got 8 weeks of an empty nest before it became occupied again! LOL!! I rather like it that way. He does for himself (cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc.) - but he enjoys our relationships also. He works full time, but hangs around once in awhile...so we don't think he's using home as a hotel. (he's 25 - and will soon be moving on again I am sure...) but as a Mom - WOW! makes me feel confident I did a few things right just seeing him live here as a young adult male! Your daughter will do great! And so will you!!! Just keep telling her how proud you are of her...and how sure you are she can succeed in whatever she puts her mind to!!! And now is the time... GO DO IT!!! FLY!!!! Love Ya Much, Paula (write me anytime if you want!) 
19 Mar 13 by member: jsfantome
Paula - thank you so much for sharing. Yes, you are right about the prayers and I know there will be many going up for her. I will definitely write to you, thank you again! 
19 Mar 13 by member: jaime30024

     
 

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