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#10 CC
Yesterday was extremely rough. I had a huge array of emotions that were brought out. What started off as nervousness, turned to anxiety which turned to self doubt and the absolute feeling of despair.
We were given an hour for lunch and I used it to walk, had some errands to do anyways. In the afternoon when I returned the anxiety had leesoned but instead I felt detached. My lack of confidence and not being able to see "the big picture" shone so brightly it was blinding.
When I got home the only question that kept swirling in my mind was can I do this? I know I want to work now but the process of achieving it fills me with dread.
To summarise I am going to complete this workshop with a generalized resume. It will be a building block for the next workshop that I am scheduled to attend.
All I can do right now at this very moment is to do the best that I can, take bits and PCs and creatively patch them together.
As long as I struggles I know one thing for sure I still have a strong inner spirit.
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