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I am so disgusted with myself and disgusted with food. I have had pretty much 4 days of bingeing - two real days of bingeing and two days leading up to it. I don't know what to do. Every day I wake up and say that I'm not going over my RDI, and every day I do. At least yesterday, I went over but it wasn't as bad as Saturday. I don't know why I feel the need to binge. Actually, I do. I feel really deprived and really hungry. I need to get used to being hungry, I guess, but it's so hard. I don't want to gain back all the weight that I have lost. And I still can't get in the gym because of my hip injury. I am really going to try this week to be better. There's something about a Monday that feels brand new and soothing.
Diet Calendar Entry for 14 January 2013:
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1192 kcal
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Fat: 43.72g | Prot: 73.68g | Carb: 143.86g.
Breakfast: Frozen Strawberries great value, Oikos plain greek yogurt. Lunch: Kraft Light Mayonnaise, Sara Lee Delightful 100% Whole Wheat Bread, Oscar Mayer turkey bacon, romaine lettuce, tomato. Dinner: corn, green beans, chicken breast. Snacks/Other: fat free half and half, Sabra hummus, Hunt's Sugar Free, baby carrots, reduced fat string cheese, red delicious apples. more...
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At least you made this entry, I feel like acknowledging when things are going wrong, especially publicly like this, is the first step to getting it back together! And you're right, mondays are the perfect day for fixing things! Don't be disgusted with yourself - its something we all do and can all understand. If you're still suffering with hunger, how about taking a controlled solution to try to combat it without having to resort to binging, like deliberately allowing yourself 200 calories more a day but trying to mainly make them veg or fibre? I know its so hard though, I've been pretty hungry these last few days too and its very difficult to ignore! Really hope you feel back in control today - if you find yourself reaching towards anything you shouldn't eat, throw it out! Measure out your portions, weigh things, and only eat sitting down! But you can do this and you can get back on track. I'll check up on you! Take care x
14 Jan 13 by member: phibs
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Yup - it can be hard sometimes. Check out my journal today - I said the same stuff. I am trying intermittent fasting but because if your diabetes, you probably cannot try it. But I am just allowing myself to only eat when I have to eat...
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Dollie, I'm not lecturing - so please read this with the compassion it is being written. Look back at your journals and how it feels to be in control of what you're eating. Are you drinking enough water? ARe you sure it isn't thirst masquerading as hunger? Have you considered a chicken broth and boullion broth or what I call RDI Survival soup - an entire pot full of veggies and plenty of broth that you can eat all day and probably only take in 700 cals of it? I'm just offering this because you have done soooo well I do not want to see you follow in my historical path of blowing it all once you've arrived. So say this, please, to yourself, outloud. I DESERVE TO BE HEALTHY. Whatever is going on with you causing you to feel deprived and binge is an emotion. Journal it as you're doing here. Chew up an entire bag of brocolli and cauliflower and drink 48 oz of water before you get more 'cake' (I peeked at your food diary). You deserve your success. Don't let some subconscious THING take it away from you.
14 Jan 13 by member: FullaBella
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