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Ah! Back to losing.
I know it was only a week of nothing, but it makes me scared to think when a real plateau hits how I'll react.
25 days until my friend's wedding, now I'm looking for dresses to wear, again. I'm scared that I'll get something and it'll be too big. I just want to look nice and maybe show off how hard I've worked to have gotten to where I am.
Also, another countdown, 86 days until Jamaica. I am hoping that I will be in the 130s by then, but I'm not making any promises. According to my mini-goals (which I am terribly ahead of and am probably going to have to revise them soon), I should be 143 by then, give or take. Which isn't that terribly far from the 130s range I would like to be in.
I've been thinking about my journal a lot lately. I've realized that I still don't think that it's really happening. My mom told me yesterday that I'm "wasting away to nothing," and this morning, my arch-nemesis at work told me I've lost a lot of weight. It just don't seem real to me. I think the reason why I don't want to go back to Weight Watchers, like getting weighed in and the meetings is because I'm afraid that my scale is wrong and that I haven't actually lost weight. I know that sounds crazy, but I read a post in the forum about being close to goal and being scared (you know who you are ;) )I feel the same way, except that I feel like I'm fooling myself and that things aren't going as swimmingly as I think they are.
Too heavy for today. Alright, no scary things happened while on my walk last night, Joe came with me and it was still light out, so there were no shadows, sticks, or skaters to give me a panic attack. But however, discussing the situational needs of hot versus iced green tea, always brings a smile to my face.
Diet Calendar Entries for 05 May 2010:
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644 kcal
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Fat: 23.14g | Prot: 28.66g | Carb: 80.50g.
Breakfast: Vitalicious Golden Corn Vitatops, Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Coffee. Lunch: Borden Pepperjack, Dijon Mustard, Lite Wheat Bread, Oscar Mayer 98% Fat Free Honey Roasted Turkey Breast. Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Minis Combination. Snacks/Other: Hershey Kisses. more...
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2271 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 6 hours and 15 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours and 45 minutes. more...
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