Judyrose1997's Journal, 11 July 2017

Am doing so so today. Anything less than the good wholesome feelings surrounding this lifestyle change seems to me to be foreboding. I am completely committed to this way of eating. At little unsure of how I am doing but do not want to back slide. Glad that I can come here. But I have to say...at this moment...and for some unknown reason...I am insecure...feel like I have been here so many times in my life...and I have lost and gained and lost and gained so...ultimately I ask myself " why do I keep trying?". Gone today is the excitement of going forward sure that I will succeed. The strangest aspect of this attitude today is that it was so absent last week. Today I am eating Keto. I have planned the rest of the day . I will exercise and meditate - my usual routine. Nothing is different really. I am anticipating a visit from my daughter from Seattle. She and her boyfriend will be staying with us for a week. My relationship with her is very close. So ...I do not expect that this discomfort is due to her visit. So maybe I should just
stay in "today" and let these thoughts ebb . Feelings aren't facts. If I just stay Keto... my thoughts bad as they are...do not defeat me...not today anyway. Keep calm, Keto on!

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 July 2017:
1150 kcal Fat: 80.97g | Prot: 62.21g | Carb: 14.79g.   Breakfast: Ground Beef (85% Lean / 15% Fat), Coffee, Water, Keto Pancakes, Keto Pancakes. Lunch: Marketside Baby Spinach, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Blue Diamond Whole Natural Almonds 100 Calorie Packs, Aquafina Water (16.9 oz), Cracker Barrel 2% Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Chicken Breast Meat and Skin (Broilers or Fryers). Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's 70% Dark Chocolate Wedges, Great Value Mixed Nuts, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Glaceau Smartwater - Electrolyte Enhanced Water, Crystal Light Crystal Light on the Go Sugar Free Packets. more...
2653 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Stretching (yoga) - 30 minutes, Meditation - 15 minutes. more...

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I feel you Judy.. We all feel this way many times in our journey. I'm doing this egg fast and not feeling different weight wise. And it's only the 2nd day and I'm asking myself why am I doing this??? I should just continue the process and stop over analyzing everything.. easy to say.. but hard to do. 
11 Jul 17 by member: emilydiaz83
Emily,Thank you. I do overthink things...although I know this habit does not have to defeat me.  
11 Jul 17 by member: Judyrose1997
I think many (including myself) go through this mental funk. I have been worried about you with the small drop and then a teeny gain. It's easy to remain motivated as long as those losses are coming regularly and relatively easy. Remember many things can affect weight, so weight cannot be your only measurement! Sometimes I have to be careful with goals - lose ______lbs before this date and then when that doesn't happen I can go into a funk (I am a Type A, goal oriented person). So, I don't do that. I've had some times when I've gained a little, lost very little, but when I look at the whole process, I've still been losing 1 lb a week, which is plenty. I don't look short term, I just really try to keep my focus on the big picture. I look at measurements, I look at energy, I look at the ability to do more physically because I'm not toting around an extra 30 lbs, I try to look at all the good effects on all areas of my life. Know what throws me the worst? Challenges! Yes, the FS challenges. I have a really hard time with that red "failed" when I don't/can't reach the goal or mini goals! My goal is not to have a drop dead figure, live longer, have less wrinkles (I earned mine and I'm hanging onto them), build muscle. Those might be the end results of this journey. My goal is to live the best life I can on a day-to-day basis. Yesterday I got on a carosel horse! I got on that horse gracefully and without having to make several attempts. Couldn't have done that a few months ago. What a fun little event in a fun day! Hang in there, Judy. 
11 Jul 17 by member: Horseshu1
Thanks Horesho1, you motivated me today. I have been in a funk about losing 1 lb and then gaining it back 2 days later, 
11 Jul 17 by member: granny67
No worries, Judy, we've got this! I'm right here with you! I love the fact that you meditatw, as do I. One thought came to me during meditation yesterday... "Even if the process is slow or comes to a a halt, I know that things will go in the other direction if I fall off." Today's meditative thought... "It isn't about how much weight I lose, it's about how good I feel." Another recent meditative thought... "My reality is MY reality. I control how I perceive things, not the opinions of others". Fight the negative thoughts tgat slap you in the face with the silver linings that we are capable of acknowledging! I would wish you luck, but you don't need it! ;) Hope you enjoy your visit. :) 
11 Jul 17 by member: FatGirlJenny
To be honest with you, I feel exactly the same. Each day, I don't know if tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up as mativated as the day before... 
11 Jul 17 by member: thsiun
I am also struggling. I tried the 5 day liquid challenge and couldn't complete it. I have been struggling to get back on track. 
11 Jul 17 by member: Joelene71
Sorry that you are feeling so blue... I to have struggled with those thoughts but if we take on a whole different way of thinking you will find it easier to get through... Our thoughts will consume us .... Don't put pressure on yourself and feel deprived of food you once ate... Give yourself a treat once a week and don't feel bad about it... Don't allow yourself to think negative because it can cause us to feel that we aren't at our best when we really are.. We put so much pressure on ourselves to not message up even on a diet and it gets overwhelming... I have suffered from an eating disorder for years and I'm trying so hard to keep my mind positive so that I don't get where I was before... It gets easier but we have to give ourselves a patient on the back even if we slip  
11 Jul 17 by member: sharletagraham
It's all in the mind and we can train it lol ... Just look in the mirror every morning and tell yourself out loud that you can do it and that you are worth it... Love yourself everyday.. We live how we think... I read a spiritual book about that and I tell you it works  
11 Jul 17 by member: sharletagraham
Hi Judy, I thoughtfully read this post. It sounds like you are doing the obligatory stuff and that you have had a stale week. I noticed that you seem stuck on your lack of enthusiasm. It made me think of "Writers Block" we painters sometimes get that too. In painting I am kind of expert in getting unstuck and use a few devices that help me see everything fresh again. I will turn the painting upside down and look for where I am stuck. If that doesn't work, I turn the painting on both of it sides. I will also look through a mirror at the painting on each of it sides. The long story is when I look at it from radically different perspectives clarity and enthusiasm start to flow. Knock on wood this has always worked for me.  
11 Jul 17 by member: Michael Newberry
We all have ups and downs after a brilliant start. It's human nature! Two things that have sustained me for the last 15 months of Keto are to Trust the Process, and Be Kind To Yourself. Yep, there are days when the will is weak. It happens. Press reset. There are weeks when nothing seems to be happening, even when you're 'being good'. Trust the Process. The best advice I've ever seen is just above me from Michael Newberry. Reality from a different perspective is ALWAYS a good idea. (FS needs a LIKE button for comments, dangit!) 
11 Jul 17 by member: mskestrela
I think Michael Newberry has a great idea going on there Judyrose1997. Our lives are and should always be about perspective. Our perspective on what is going on today, is always a bit skewed from yesterday. It is supposed to be that way, so we can continue to grow and learn and be productive in our lives, not just for today, but for every day here after.  
11 Jul 17 by member: SLLockhart
Think long-term...not day-to-day. I've been on a long journey here at FS. I started in 2010, dropped from 234 to 185, and then fell off the wagon and went back up to 204. Now I've been back on track for almost 2 years, and I'm down to 151+, and I am really well established in my WOE. I couldn't be more thrilled. A few of my secrets? -- 1. Stay off the scale. Set a monthly or twice-monthly day when you weigh in and don't weigh in between. All the natural ups and downs will drive you crazy. And what matters is the long-term result, not the weekly result. 2. Adopt a realistic exercise plan that includes something you enjoy doing. I love to walk, so that's what I do. And I remembered how much I loved ice skating as a kid, and so I went for lessons and started skating again. "No pain no gain" -- is a stupid slogan. You can do fun low impact exercise as a start and progress toward more challenging activities. 3. OK so you have to "deny" yourself certain foods. Now challenge yourself to find things that fit on your diet that you really love. It could be fish or zucchini noodles or Chinese-style eggplant -- but explore so you can reward yourself with those foods when things are not going well. Sorry -- I don't mean to lecture. I know how hard this is. The thing is, if we're going to keep this weight off once and for all, then we have ot find ways to be comfortable with whatever new lifestyle it is that will work for you. Good luck. I feel your pain, really.  
11 Jul 17 by member: Hermiones Mom
Thank you so much...for all your support and help. I mean it...it matters so much to me. Out of Funk...or getting there.... 
11 Jul 17 by member: Judyrose1997

     
 

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