velvetee's Journal, 22 June 2019

So I'm trying to be honest with myself. Been going through a major depressive moment for the past couple months. Tons of shit to handle. Trying to eat normally but it's hard, I feel nauseated for the most part. But I guess I am getting better because it's my first feminine dress... that I ordered online of course (anxiety in crowded places, food is the only thing I don't buy online actually). And it's not black!! I mostly wear black/pants, it's my uniform. Buying a colourful feminine dress is really something! I feel weird and share this here as part of my therapy. I am preparing myself, will I get to leave my house wearing this ? Does anyone else here struggle with autism/depression/anxiety? Especially females? How do you deal with it?

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Lol my last selfie is from November 2018... all black.  
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
Key thanks 😘 it’s hard to handle, I almost want to die when I leave my place. Unfortunately I have to work to pay my bills. My social life is very limited because I hate it. I can fake being social when needed but it takes so much energy! I was diagnosed only last year.. 38 years of struggle to finally understand. Can’t say I feel better tho... 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
You are beautiful, and that dress looks very nice on you. I hope you develop more confidence in yourself, because you deserve it.  
22 Jun 19 by member: Questforhealth
Aww...that dress looks amazing on you! Truly amazing. 
22 Jun 19 by member: AboutMyTribe
Confidence is a strange thing. It is an internal struggle but if we could see what others see we would not struggle as much. The dress looks so good on you and should give you confidence. I've heard people say dress for the job you want and not for the job you have. I think that could apply on your situation as, Dress for the attitude you want and not the attitude you have. You're very beautiful and should not be anxious at all. Try to see yourself the way others see you and love yourself. Best wishes.  
22 Jun 19 by member: pager5
You are beautiful. And it does not matter what other people think about us. We don't have to impress anyone. Just take care of yourself, be kind to others. 
22 Jun 19 by member: Sweet Georgia Peaches
I have no experience with autism or that level of anxiety but I know you said your bf will be back in town soon, right? I think if I remember correctly...back when I had low confidence going out with a buddy while practicing more courage in public helped a ton. Those moments when you put yourself out there and play it back in your head kicking yourself...can be validated by a buddy to let you know being you was prrfevtly fine. 
22 Jun 19 by member: AboutMyTribe
Autism in females in hightly misunderstood IMO. Funny story, one of the reasons I failed my probation: "you are brilliant but youdon't fit our culture because you are quite puzzling.. 1) "charming from time to time but at the same time withdrawn" 2) "very competent but too independent" 3) "too straitforward, you hurt others". Ew, I don't get stupid jokes. My manager, a super douche, called me Cicciolina. For those who don't know, google the picture, it's an Italian porn star. Unfortunately I took it literally and just said "fuck off, you dick". I can't handle things like this properly... 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
The dress is so cute, I love it!!! I wear black (coming from NYC) all the time....and I love in the south now. I always love floral dresses though. This one is so cute, especially on you. If you feel funny, carry a little sweater or something you can put over if you get too self conscious---you shouldn't because it looks stunning on you.  
22 Jun 19 by member: Ginsin
Oh God typos. 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
Thanks @Quest, whilst I don't think I'm a shy person per se, I avoid being exposed.  
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
@pager, I just dress to be comfortable, usually. I don't show my body off even if I know I technically could. I'm not anxious about my appearance but just with people. I want to get lost. 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
I would have said the same thing to my boss. You weren't inappropriate- he was. Your dress is cute. Go somewhere close to home. Maybe do a little at a time. Wish I had better advice.  
22 Jun 19 by member: davidsprincess
You look beautiful in that dress. 🧡  
22 Jun 19 by member: Erquiaga
ABT, my boyfriend is an amazing guy for real... he is my rock... he is aware of my condition. Unfortunately he lives in America so I don't see him often. 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
You look beautiful!! The dress looks great. 
22 Jun 19 by member: Ram12Gar
Beautiful dress and it looks great on you!! I take medication for my anxiety. I’m in Xanax 0.5 mg twice a day as needed. Like I want to be invited to things but like also know I probably won’t go. It’s awful. 
22 Jun 19 by member: jcmama777
@Sweet Georgia 😘☺️ 
22 Jun 19 by member: velvetee
Looking great! The dress as well. 🙂 
22 Jun 19 by member: yohoyoh
adorable dress and you look wonderful in it. 
22 Jun 19 by member: dboza

     
 

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