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Yesterday I ate: bowl of plain whole oats with added raisins for breakfast. Large romaine lettuce salad with 1/2 cup of water-packed solid white albacore tuna for lunch; two tiny grouper filets with steamed veggies for dinners. Grapes for dessert. People are starting to tell me now that I look like I'm losing weight. I still don't have a scale, so I don't know exactly what my numbers are. The other weekend at a resale store they had a bathroom scale for sale, on the floor, so I discreetly stepped on it when no one was looking. But the scale only went up to 250 pounds and the needle went way over that for me. It was disgusting. So I refuse to buy a scale until I can fit within the parameters of one of those off-the-shelf Walmart scales; that means I'll have to weigh 250 or less. That means I might have to be 40-50 pounds into this weightloss before I can even register on a scale. I hate that. But I do like looking at my thinner face in the mirror. I have had a big double chin for years, and it's sort of deflating now. Sadly, it's leaving the baggy skin behind -- but I've decided not to beat myself up over baggy skin. I think it will either go away by itself, eventually, or I can have this thermal dermal thing I saw on one of the makeover shows where they just microwave your skin and it tightens up from underneath. They showed a woman with a sagging jawline improve in minutes, and she said it was painless. So there is hope that someday this chin will be just a memory. My black jeans are getting almost too baggy for me now. I will have to see what happens when I wash them in hot water and dry them bone dry; that should shrink them down to "slenderizing" again. I remember as a teen putting my jeans in the dryer to make them skin tight, because then they acted as a natural girdle, holding in my tummy for me. Heaven knows what that looked like from behind! Last night my husband told me the diet I'm on -- no refined white flour or sugar, nothing that ends in -ose -- is like the Atkins diet. So I'm going to check that out today and see. I felt proud. People have told me that's the toughest and most successful diet around, except you have to stay on it for life. I'd love to be able to tell people I was on the Atkins diet; I would sound so self-disciplined. I'm going over to the Atkins people now to see what's up. I'll just eavesdrop.
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