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Today, I realized I am changing for the better, but that comes with a downside. I am doing the work. I am taking care of myself and making small but important improvements every day. I fight for me. The downside is that I'm realizing my friends are toxic. It's OK to vent and be down, but we also need to take responsibility. Try to improve ourselves by digging deep and by not making excuses. I told my friend about my goals, and she said it won't happen because our our bodies change as we get older. Accept the weakness most get as they become older. Accept the flab all over, big belly, etc. huh. Just because I'm older doesn't mean I can't be strong and fit. She says it's just the way it is. I've never had that attitude. I've never given up. In fact, there are some serious body builders in their 60s and 80s that started in their 50s. She's always complaining. I hope I'm not like that. omg. I'm complaining right now 🤣 My other good friend is a heavy drinker, self-destructiing with a family. it makes me sad. I need to move on. i lost my best buddy in December, and when they are gone, you realize how even more special they were. in conclusion, I need new friends. Today, I had something great to share and realized I didn't even have someone to text that was positive. I think this has affected the way I have eaten the last day or so. I allowed myself some cookies I made. Yea, it messed with my brain chemistry as usual. I'm clean again 😁 Its hard to meet new friends. I enjoy doing things alone, but it's nice to have positive friends! That's my new goal. Try to expose myself to other people and meet new friends. I might have to join the nice new gym that's a little farther away. there are so many people there. Mine is not hoppin. lol. I'm rambling. I guess the message I'm trying to make is that if people are toxic and sucking the life out of you because they are always negative, distance yourself from them. Be strong 💪 and think of ways to find positivity 😇
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127.0 lb
Lost so far: 103.0 lb.
Still to go: 12.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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steady weight
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