Fritzy 22's Journal, 01 March 2024

Still not doing good. The "reset" on the 25th didn't hold. Don't even think I made it through the 26th. Not sure what's going on in my head, because it is in my head. I think it's a combination of 2 things - the realization I do need surgery of some kind on my knee and the new house I plan on buying and moving to in Oregon. Both for me are major life events and are happening at the same time. And neither is going well. I have no idea when the house will be built. Originally I was told it would be done in April. So I should have put my house up for sale (a 3rd major life event for me and major stressor).

I have been eating stuff I didn't even know I wanted. Way too much ice cream. I finally threw out a half carton of ice cream yesterday. A least they aren't half gallons any anymore. Thanks to shrink-flation the containers are now a quart and a half. I do know that when I am ready to get focussed it just clicks in my head and I don't care about chips or ice cream or crackers with butter, etc. Nothing is clicking now but at least right now the only bad thing in the house is less than a half box of Ritz crackers. And the weather is lousy so I don't want to drive anywhere let alone to the grocery store. It was so windy all day yesterday. I put bird food out on the deck and could see dozens of sparrows, and tiny bright yellow gold finches. In the tree branches holding on for dear life. There are blizzard conditions "up the hill" and people are being cautioned not to drive up to Tahoe, the ski resorts are closed anyway because of the blizzard and crazy wind and potential for avalanches. Down the hill, where I live we just have rain and the crazy wind. There may be some low snow at elevations of 2000-3000 feet, but I am around 1500 or so.

I did walk on the dirt trail 2 days in a row because it is a quick easy 20 minute loop. But my aching knee is reminding me my doctor said not to walk on dirt trails. I go to physical therapy for my knee Monday. It's just an evaluation. I don't want to be doing anything that could hurt me more. Okay, I know it was my decision to walk on the dirt trail.

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1188 kcal

Fat: 68.64g | Prot: 47.43g | Carb: 111.46g.   Breakfast: Jif Creamy Peanut Butter, Ritz Crackers - Fresh Stack, Sugar, Cream (Half & Half), Coffee. Lunch: Trader Joe's Raw Sliced Almonds. Snacks/Other: General Mills Cheerios (Cup), Crystal Fat Free Milk. more...