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Oh Happy day... :D
It is Friday and I am so excited!
Okay please keep me in your thoughts as I run.
I want to run so bad and I can see myself doing it. Since the evenings here in the Golden State are cooling down, running should be even more enjoyable. I was up late last night talking to my close friend Ebonee about my weight options. Rather I should continue to loose the weight naturally or have the alternative done the "lap band". Now for some of you who have been following my journey and reading my journals, I was told before by a doctor (who shall remain nameless) that I could not loose the weight unless I had gastro bypass surgery due to a slow metabolism. Now, about 8 months later I am down 47 pounds. I credit a lot of my weight loss to my sister girl BA. That alone proves doctor idiot wrong.
During Ebonee and my conversation, she said, “You really need to pray on having or even considering that surgery. There are a lot of possible complications and you could chance gaining the weight back quickly because that is how you lost it.” I told her that I did pray on it. She then said “well did you get an answer?” I said well since working out with BA it has been 4 months and in that 4 months I lost 22 pounds. Before that, I lost 25 pounds on my own in about 4 months. So it appears to me that every 4 months I loose approximately 20 to 25 pounds. In another 4 months (as I continue to exercise and eat healthy) I will loose another 20 to 25 pounds. Then again in another 4 months and before you know it is will be December 2010 and I will be at my weight goal. Ebonee said, “Exactly and that is a good way to look at it. You can do it; you are doing it." The weight did come off despite Doctor Idiot’s opinion. I just need to be more patient with myself and continue to remind myself that the weight did not come over night and it will not go away in 4 months. Given that, I have determined that I am going to do this without surgery. I think that is the best decision for me.
I just want to say what sparked all of my weight insecurities again was a recent visit to the mall (I love the mall). Since I was a little girl, I have loved to play dress up and shop. Mom and I would often take trips downtown to get hats and shoes (those were for momma and sometimes for me too) LOL. Although I am grown woman, I still love to feel pretty and I still love to shop. During my trip to the mall, I went to Victoria’s Secret and spoke to one of the sales associates about their sizes. She said our sizes run small, some how hearing that and looking at the mannequin dressed in lingerie tripped me out! I suddenly was aware that I was a bigger girl and could not fit a thing in the store. I told the sales associate that I would be back and one day that I would be able to fit their under garments. The sales associated said “you can do it”. I said, “Hey a girl has to have a dream and my dream is to not only buy perfume at Victoria’s Secret, but also to wear their under garments.” LOL
Happy Friday
The Butterfly~
Diet Calendar Entry for 28 August 2009:
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1294 kcal
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Fat: 78.03g | Prot: 75.36g | Carb: 81.62g.
Breakfast: eggs, Low carb tortilla La Tortilla Factory, jennie-o turkey bacon, fritos. Lunch: Broccoli (Spears, Frozen), Lean Turkey Burgers. Snacks/Other: string cheese, Fiber choice, splenda packets, water, coffee, one A day. more...
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OMG Butterfly ur entry today is soo me and I know exactly how u feel. I am losing weight at a slow weight compared to a couplem yrs before. I dont know whether its the age, stress, slow metabolism or the combination of both. I know I lost but I get discouraged when noone notices..BOOOO.I dont recommend the surgery thing even though it had crossed my mind as well. I dont now if its paranoia but some doctors would encourage the surgery to fatten their pockets and not really have your best interest in ming. I was thinking of the gastric but I have heard many horror storeis from people who had it done.. Look at the chic from Wilson Phillips she had it done and she is chunky now. I feel you on the mall thing, but in my mind I know it wont be for long. I think u can speed up your metabolism so thats not really an issue. Your friend Ebonee sounds sincere and have your best interest in mind. Not too many people have close friends like that. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK! Btw sorry for the novel i just wrote...lol
28 Aug 09 by member: ms_michelle
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Surgery. My Mom had gastric bypass surgery in 2002, one year before my father passed (he died unexpectedly, today would have been his 62nd bday) and for her, it was the best thing she has done for herself. It should be noted that she went through with the surgery against my Dad's wishes, but with his support and blessing nonetheless. It boosted her self esteem, improved her health, boosted her energy, and honeslty I don't know if she could have made it through the loss of her best friend and spouse without it. My Mom had no complications and has not gained back an oz, but she has followed to doctor's instructions to the letter! When I hear of people having major complications from this surgery, it is usually due to their total disregard of Dr. orders ie introducing meat too early, eating a ginormus amounts of carbs, drinking tons of alcohol..you get the picture. Butterfly I am extremely happy that you have found a healty way to achieve your weightloss goal, but I wanted to share a positve story concerning such a surgery. Like so many things in life, you only get out of it what you put into it. Happy Friday! WOOHOO!
28 Aug 09 by member: Courtney26
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OMG I just adore you Court! I always love to hear your stories as they are so enlightening. I am glad to her of the success of your mothers surgery and I terribly sorry for the loss of your papa! :( You are one bright woman so richly intuitive. Thank you for always opening my eyes to new perspectives (I truly mean that). Warmest Regards on this Friday! I pray that your weekend is full of joy as your little niece is visiting. I on the other hand will be napping...1st and 2nd LOL tootles~
28 Aug 09 by member: Butterfly30
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Thank you ms_michelle for you comment! Never apologize for what you write or say on this page okay! I just feel your sincerity coming through every word and I like it! :D What you wrote truly encouraged my heart to keep fighting. So I say to you keep fighting this weight battle soon "be for long" we will be walking the mall and looking like some sexy, hot, mommas! :D LOL
28 Aug 09 by member: Butterfly30
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hahaha..thanx....LUV IT..look out victoria secret here we come....Soon we will say I have the midnight perfume set AND the matching bra and panties set....YAAAAAYYYYY
28 Aug 09 by member: ms_michelle
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I really enjoyed reading this journal entry because it showed how you have probably the right perspective on weight loss butterfly; persistance and patience. Its really a good way to look at this weight loss journey and I'm glad that you're staying committed even though you sometimes think the weight isn't coming off as fast (who doesn't actually lol).Ok butterfly have a good weekend and here's to our favorite glass of wine at FS, ms_michelle (I wonder now will she put up a picture lol) Take care y'all
28 Aug 09 by member: splendidhammer
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You are so strong and so determined, you can do anything you set your mind to. You've proven a medical professional WRONG!!! I am in this with you, we are all. You will get to shop at Vickie's soon enough.
28 Aug 09 by member: Shia34
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I thank you so much Butterfly for you jounal entry, I myself is having a very bad day with the weight and all and you just encouraged me. You also let me know that I am not alone, I wannted to give up so bad and no that I have read what you wrote I am with you. You are so right it didn't come on over night so its not coming off over night either. I want that to stick in my head but it wont, but I will say it every time I get down now. As of the Victoria Secret I couldn't agree with ya'll more. I love their perfume but theres nothing that will fit me in there, but one day ladies one day.. Thank you so much.. Congrats on deciding to do it on your own.. Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy your naps...
28 Aug 09 by member: PanchayAdrian
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Girl, I am SO GLAD you decided to lose weight naturally! I know that the bypass surgery is good for some people but you STILL have to eat healthy foods and be even more careful about what you eat after the surgery. Also, there are risks. Better that you learn what you should naturally eat to lose and maintain your weight and be healthy. My metabolism is slow too. I used to get SO frustrated when the weight wouldn't come off fast enough. When I finally accepted the fact that I'm just going to lose slowly, I felt so much better. You have to be in it for the long haul when you're a slow loser like me. You're so lucky to live close to BA. She is an angel! I can't fit in anything at Victoria's Secret either, so when we get there, Girlfriend, you and I are gonna go out and do some SHOPPING!!! ((((HUGS)))) :-)
28 Aug 09 by member: mbhpro
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Awww....I didn't expect to come over here and expect to hear such nice things about me! I love you Butterfly, you know that! I'm glad to hear that you're not looking for a quick fix over your weight issues. You've come a long way in a short time...you better believe it! We are definitely the generation of wanting things NOW, so to see you moving to the beat of a NORMAL drum, brings joy to my heart! we have nothing but time, and the gym is just up the street! I admire your dedication when we're working out, and the courage you show during bootcamp is commendable! I know you inspire others to try harder, including Ebonee! I'm glad you're my sister! I'm the lucky one!! I love you to death, sister!!!
28 Aug 09 by member: BadAndee
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28 Aug 09 by member: BadAndee
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BA are you starting stuff?
28 Aug 09 by member: Butterfly30
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Wow! I am must admit I feel an overwhelming sense of support through all of your comments. I literal almost broke down and cried. You gals and guy (Splendid) cannot do that to me at work (they may think something is incredibly wrong). LOL I am touched by all of your personal struggles! MB no worries I am sure that you will get your taste of working out with BA. So get ready; it’s on!
Nonetheless, thank you all and I am here for you too! With all my heart I am dedicated to encouraging and being a support. Lovies and hugs...Mauh Mauh Mauh!
Trust me we are going to make Vickies (thanks Shia for the Victoria’s Secret nickname; LOVES IT)
28 Aug 09 by member: Butterfly30
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Oh, hey - Fredericks of Hollywood goes to size 42F and has online ordering! www.fredericks.com
28 Aug 09 by member: abbadabba
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ooo girl abbadabba is right! Fredericks is just like Vicki's except a little sluttier...lol Some of us are into that little extra under the clothes! I'm just sayin' lol
28 Aug 09 by member: Courtney26
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Janay, my sweetie poo! I will support you on whatever decision you decide, but I have so much faith in you, and I know that you have the determination to lose all of your excess poundage on your own! YOU GO GIRL! :)
31 Aug 09 by member: Leesah
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Thank you Leesah! I love you...:D I need your support. You know that girlfriend!
31 Aug 09 by member: Butterfly30
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