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Not sure what is up today, but I am craving food.. I have the munchies. I hope I can curb it. I just ate one serving of Quaks Rice Snacks. I spread it out over the past hour.
I am thinking I am troubled by Cal's Dad, who is in the nursing home, I dreamed about him last night and he had me running ragged, like he used to when he was at home. I was fetching him water, and then had to run and mix some drink mix into the glass for him, and then something else.. till, (in my dream) I burst out and told him .. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!... Mom wants you to be with her. your body is dying, your brain is not the same. It is time to leave.
I am about to cry since I am typing this and seeing how I am feeling. I feel wretched. Have I lost my compassion? Is this why I want to stuff my feelings with food right now. Oh, I need to pray hard.
Please pray with me.
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Oh Sherry, please don't feel wretched. Even as I type this, I understand completely why you do feel this way. Your father-in-law did, as you said, run you ragged, and I'm sure there were times when you felt somewhat that way. I spent the last years of my working life caring for the elderly. It is a difficult job to do, however much you like that person. Dreams can mean so many things. Perhaps it was preparing you for what is to come. You haven't lost your compassion at all. I really feel that one of your spiritual gifts is that of compassion. I will pray with you and I will pray for you. I do hope you'll feel better soon and I pray that God will give you wisdom to come to terms with this. I'm sending you much love and many hugs!
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Thank you Pam. I need this.
15 Jul 11 by member: ShewoIf
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