kziemianski's Journal, 28 January 2011

I need to have a little rant here... Sorry!

Alright, today I weighed in higher than I have since starting on this website. Sure most of it was probably water weight since I have a lot of sugar and salt yesterday but a few months ago I was a solid 4 pounds less than I am now.

Since I started to increase my protein my weight has steadily been rising. I'm not sure if this is because I'm over compensating for not having all the carbs I like by eating sugar or if it's because of some other random thing. But let's be honest, not eating cereal for breakfast is kinda upsetting to me. And I guess it's not just cereal. I feel like I have to think wayyyy too much about the macro nutrients in my food lately. I get this whole "can't eat this" attitute that definitely backfires on me.

OK, that being said. I also switched birth control about 4 months ago too which is about the time my weight was leveled off at it's lowest. So maybe it's the BC that's messing me up as well. I have an appointment in 3 weeks to try to get off of hormones entirely. But there's nothing I can do about anything until then.

I think I'm taking a break. This thing has never been about a "life-style" change with me. I've been eating healthy for as long as I can remember. I switched to whole grains and low fat stuff years ago. I eat fruits and veggies anyway. So what if I have chocolate and baked goods sometimes? It's not gonna kill me. Anyway, I'll probably be back after I see the gyno. But right now, I don't think I'm going to lose weight and I'm sick of torturing myself.

Cool. Feeling better. Catch ya later FS.