August 1 - a NEW START. I got the courage to weigh myself knowing that it was going to be a traumatic experience...just like everything else in my life at this time. Reasons for extreme weight gain: Deep Depression Thyroid Issues Marriage problems Offspring problems Financial Problems Menopause Took on graveyard shift lifestyle Sleep Disorder Lack of support Lack of motivation Eating like everyone else in my household Eating anything and everything and lots of it to squelch my disappointments, hatreds, frustrations Eating at all hours of the day and night Caving in to sabotage Self destruction.
Things I can change: Eating habits Try to get support online Eating schedule Go to doctor for medical issues Walk/jump daily
Jealous family members say that I gained all my weight back because I was on "CRAZY" atkins ...yet when I ate Atkins I was healthy, Vibrant and happier. I HAD SUCCESSFULLY LOST 65 POUNDS. NOW, I WEIGH MORE -250 POUNDS AND THEY ARE HAPPIER. I HATE MY LIFE. I WISH I COULD SURROUND MYSELF WITH PEOPLE THAT ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT ME AND I COULD EMPTY MY CABINETS OF JUNKSHIT. GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH I NEED TO TURN MYSELF AROUND.
So, I need to sneak this way of eating to avoid the comments and persecutions. It will be my little fat secret.
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250.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 50.0 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 01 August 2013:
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1351 kcal
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Fat: 116.46g | Prot: 60.70g | Carb: 8.12g.
Breakfast: Butter (Salted), Nutiva Organic Extra Virgin Coconut Oil, Water, Egg, Best Foods Real Mayonnaise. Lunch: Nutiva Organic Extra Virgin Coconut Oil, Andy Boy Romaine Lettuce, Mezzetta Non-Pareil Capers, StarKist Foods Solid White Albacore Tuna, Water, Best Foods Mayonnaise. Dinner: Nutiva Organic Extra Virgin Coconut Oil, Water, Andy Boy Romaine Lettuce, Mezzetta Non-Pareil Capers, StarKist Foods Solid White Albacore Tuna, Best Foods Real Mayonnaise. Snacks/Other: Nothing after 8. more...
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2762 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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gaining 0.8 lb a week
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Comments
Welcome back. You know how this works and you have within you the ability to make it work again. It won't solve all your problems in 1 day......it may not solve all your issues....period. But you're on the right path choosing to focus on what you CAN change. As for the other people......they're not the ones who have to carry around the extra weight and deal with the associated medical issues (paying for the medical costs too). When they can do that, they're welcome to spout their opinions. So....head up....YOU are in charge of YOUR life! Good luck!
01 Aug 13 by member: Sandy701
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I agree with Sandy. Focusing on what you CAN change is the most important thing! Online support is here! You cried out to God .... keep up with that and he will give you the strength!
01 Aug 13 by member: JazzyOwl
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Stay strong and do what is best for you. I know it's hard especially with no support system, but you are in control of your own destiny. Best of luck!
01 Aug 13 by member: CathyM74
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This is why I love fatsecret! Thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for your quick support Sandy701, JazzyOwl,Cathym74. You'll never know how your comments are helping restart my journey!
01 Aug 13 by member: Bird Fancier
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You are so very welcome! Support is important!
01 Aug 13 by member: JazzyOwl
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