I binged and purged yesterday. It was a very stressful weekend but I shouldn't have given in. I have been so strong all summer. I am so close to my weight goal. I only need to hang on another 60 days. I am not quiting my diet, so I haven't failed, but I am having a hard time keeping positive.
I stopped dieting hard because of my operation, and I've not got back into the habit. Eating is a habit - good eating or bad. Emotions play a large part in eating. So do things like the flu, lack of sleep, and feeling under the weather.
I am feeling down because, I've lost the weight, but I can't find clothes to fit. I am below the 'plus size' but not into the regular size. My jeans are hanging off my hips. My fall clothes are all made for a size 20 - I am now a 14 in pants, or a medium in tops. No more 2X but don't want to buy anything new, because I expect to be a 12 by Christmas. I don't want to waste money on clothes that I'll only wear for 2 months.
I resolve to do a good job on the new challenge, and shed those last 20lb by Christmas.
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 October 2010:
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690 kcal
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Fat: 37.10g | Prot: 69.43g | Carb: 16.69g.
Breakfast: bottled water, coffee, Original Lite Coffee Creamer, bottled water, coffee, sweetener, Original Lite Coffee Creamer. Dinner: chicken wings hot, celery, canned tomato, baby carrots, stewing beef. more...
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2504 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sitting - 2 hours, Shopping - 1 hour, Desk Work - 10 hours, Resting - 3 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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